Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

a lover's touch.

today i woke up cold and empty. it's winter out there, as it is in zurich for 6months already. but the morning sun is shining so strong, it made me perspire in my thick layers of duvet. it felt like i have fallen asleep tanning at the beach. but inside i felt cold, and so in need of the familiar warmth and that loving hug.

it feels terrible. you know? waking up with no sense purpose for the day, except to look forward, longing for time to pass a little faster, so that i'll quickly be on my way home to cookie jar.

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it's sickening, to think about it, that every single phrase in my life i've always been looking forward for the next. like when i was little i wish i can grow up faster; to be independent, and when i was in my teenage years i couldnt wait to start work real soon so that i can have the freedom that i didnt have. unless you grew up in my parents' discipline, you will never truly understand the kind of yearning like a fish wishing it could fly. and now that i'm in my adulthood, earning a handsome monthly salary and living with the perfect man in ~~the~~my world, each day at work i long for it to end so i can be back in the care of someone i've grown overly-dependent on. and for many obvious reasons, on the whole, we're both looking forward to the day when he starts work; and then i can take a big break from all that weight on my shoulders.

thank god for him, for when my optimism wears thin, he'll surely be there to hold me. and to touch me, physically with his caring caress and mentally with his reassuring words, and just even his slightest butterfly touches to make known of his presence... makes me feel like i'm in safe hands.
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and this morning i woke up needing so much to hear his voice again... and as much as i feel a tad bit disappointed that he's out for the day and i wont know when exactly he'll be back to call me; i cant allow myself to feel that wee bit upset. cos afterall, i was the one who wanted it that way. so that he doesnt have to stay home all day waiting for me to wake up in my morning hours; at his ungodly hours, just for me to call him.

just like i dont wish for myself to go through the same.

reading his entry just now, makes me wish i can fly home right this very moment, to hug and hold him and give him that kind of loving he's been giving me.

Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:20 PM

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