information overload?verarara. (out for supper) says (1:13 AM):
femme; it's a luscious mix of words and tricks. said:
i saw your blog and i dont even know why i'm doing this but i thought i should just say
femme; it's a luscious mix of words and tricks. said:
i think you should get a bit of a grip
verarara. (out for supper) says (1:13 AM):
that's what vanessa msged me jus now when i was out.
Jianwei. says (1:14 AM):
oh..
Jianwei. says (1:14 AM):
and your thoughts?
verarara. says (1:14 AM):
u saw my blog alr meh?
Jianwei. says (1:14 AM):
loading
verarara. says (1:14 AM):
i dont udst what she means and why she said tt.
verarara. says (1:14 AM):
and i wana ask yr thoughts.
Jianwei. says (1:18 AM):
okay..
Jianwei. says (1:18 AM):
i've finished reading the blog
Jianwei. says (1:18 AM):
i think she typed that cos it looks like it's a lot of bombardment on her on your part..
verarara. says (1:19 AM):
bombardment on cassan?
verarara. says (1:19 AM):
or vanessa?
Jianwei. says (1:20 AM):
on cassan and the whole matter
verarara. says (1:22 AM):
ok, anything else to add?
Jianwei. says (1:23 AM):
i'm scrutinising to see why else..
Jianwei. says (1:23 AM):
give me a while okay
Jianwei. says (1:24 AM):
basically, i think it's because of the length that you went to post every detail out for everyone to see on your blog..
Jianwei. says (1:24 AM):
as in, it would appear to be like that..
Jianwei. says (1:24 AM):
even tho it's not meant to be..
Jianwei. says (1:24 AM):
cos like 1 shot everything thrown out to shoot at cassan and the whole issue..
Jianwei. says (1:25 AM):
maybe she thought you were getting overboard or obsessed or something..
Jianwei. says (1:25 AM):
just my guess..
Jianwei. says (1:25 AM):
you should actually ask her instead if you wanna know what she meant..
verarara. says (1:25 AM):
i asked but she wouldnt reply.
verarara. says (1:26 AM):
anyw, so what're ur own thougths bout it
Jianwei. says (1:26 AM):
i think the convo between you and her wasn't that necessary..
Jianwei. says (1:26 AM):
as in..
Jianwei. says (1:27 AM):
if you cut and paste the whole convo out, it seems like you're trying to make her look ugly instead of actually dealing with your problem of friends that take you for granted..
Jianwei. says (1:27 AM):
depending on what you actually wanna deal with la..
Jianwei. says (1:27 AM):
individual friends or the problem itself..
Jianwei. says (1:29 AM):
cos if i'm addressing the problem, i would not post the convo.. probably type something like the gist of the convo..
verarara. says (1:29 AM):
but cos she of what she tagged, like what fi said 'whacked the public'; i feel if i dont do the whole convo, ppl wouldnt knw the 2 side of the story as she said people should? so if it makes sense, i'm doing justice for her too. ha.
Jianwei. says (1:29 AM):
ya..
Jianwei. says (1:29 AM):
so you're actually aiming 1 person..
Jianwei. says (1:29 AM):
not the problem..
Jianwei. says (1:30 AM):
you're aiming the problem in 1 person..
verarara. says (1:30 AM):
i'd say i'm going for both.
Jianwei. says (1:30 AM):
not the problem in friends..
Jianwei. says (1:30 AM):
it's a lengthy convo and not everyone would really be reading it.. even your other friends from the same click..
Jianwei. says (1:31 AM):
i just scrolled again.. it's a REALLY lengthy convo..
Jianwei. says (1:31 AM):
hahaha
Jianwei. says (1:32 AM):
ppl who are more objective would probably expect you to aim the problem also.. not the person..
Jianwei. says (1:32 AM):
i'm thinking in the perspective of someone who doesn't know anything la..
Jianwei. says (1:33 AM):
but my thoughts aren't the laws..
Jianwei. says (1:33 AM):
i might be wrong..
verarara. says (1:33 AM):
no u'r pretty right bout what you said. as in, you help me better compose what i did think of in a gist but neevr quite in full formed understanding.
Jianwei. says (1:34 AM):
okay..
Jianwei. says (1:34 AM):
then what're your own thought about it now?
verarara. says (1:34 AM):
it's jus very me to do a everything kinda thing, like in a overly loso way.
verarara. says (1:34 AM):
as in, most convo that i copy and paste in my blog, i do the whole chunk usually, i dont really cut things halfway. i'm like the student who takes down each and every word my lecturer says. haha.
verarara. says (1:34 AM):
it's in general tt i tend to go in very detail kinda person.
verarara. says (1:35 AM):
not just towards this issue and definitely not just aiming cassan, i feel.
Jianwei. says (1:35 AM):
like i said, it depends on your objective..
Jianwei. says (1:35 AM):
you can't achieve everything..
Jianwei. says (1:35 AM):
you keep something in mind when you do it.
Jianwei. says (1:36 AM):
if you're trying to express yourself in the plight of friendships taken for granted, then express yourself in that manner..
Jianwei. says (1:36 AM):
if it's for the case of specific people, then in the other manner..
Jianwei. says (1:37 AM):
you can do both but the result of how ppl receive your expression will not be how you want it to be..
Jianwei. says (1:38 AM):
like now, you pour everything out, to express your unhappiness with friendships AND friends, ppl might think that you're overdoing it..
Jianwei. says (1:38 AM):
okay..
verarara. says (1:38 AM):
but nvm la, it's my blog, whatever's up is up. so let it be lor
Jianwei. says (1:39 AM):
yup..
Jianwei. says (1:39 AM):
it's ultimately still your choice..
verarara. says (1:39 AM):
thanks dear!
contemplation and procrastination cause momentum lost.1/6/2008 3:27:56 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
responded =)
1/6/2008 3:41:07 AM verarara.:
thanks done.
1/6/2008 3:41:22 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
done?
1/6/2008 3:41:34 AM verarara.:
done reading..
1/6/2008 3:41:44 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ok.
1/6/2008 3:41:48 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
so verdict?
1/6/2008 3:42:14 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
btw, the boys din say that u pretty then can have bf.
1/6/2008 3:43:45 AM verarara.:
i feel i have never felt so upset before. the boys aside, cos i dont see them as often anyw, i dont think i'm wrong in assuming that you might fly my plane.
1/6/2008 3:44:00 AM verarara.:
i'm sure they said something along those lines.
1/6/2008 3:44:28 AM verarara.:
cos straight after that i recited the whole convo to jianwei to ask if he would feel irritated by it too.
1/6/2008 3:44:54 AM verarara.:
and seriously, i dont meet the boys as often as you do. i'm not used to it at all. and i'm not obliged to.
1/6/2008 3:45:25 AM verarara.:
soya bean night, honestly if i'd know ben's there, i would have postponed it.
1/6/2008 3:46:03 AM verarara.:
i know i'm feelin unwell to handle his nonsense plus i was still angry with him about mj.
1/6/2008 3:46:41 AM verarara.:
we planned mj tt sunday but in the end he flew my plane to play with peirong they all. and it's not just me, its 2other ppl i found to play with us.
1/6/2008 3:47:06 AM verarara.:
and i stated very clearly at the soya bean place that i'm alr angry with him for tt.
1/6/2008 3:47:19 AM verarara.:
yet he n gary wouldnt watch any part of their mouths.
1/6/2008 3:47:35 AM verarara.:
i dont see why i deserve friends like that.
1/6/2008 3:47:53 AM verarara.:
gary said a couple of months back that i've got a bf and i ddint bother to contact.
1/6/2008 3:48:02 AM verarara.:
i did sms. and now, i even do a meet up.
1/6/2008 3:48:17 AM verarara.:
and all he can do is to shoot me mercilessly even after i hinted to stop?
1/6/2008 3:48:38 AM verarara.:
i dunno. i feel i'm not close to him enough to talk it out with him yet.
1/6/2008 3:49:50 AM verarara.:
as for you, mayb jus as u mentioned u'r the only person who would voice out bout seein no me when i've got a bf, mayb i'm also the only person who'll truly voice out how very irritating it's to be flew plane to.
1/6/2008 3:50:03 AM verarara.:
and to wait for your highness to reach to.
1/6/2008 3:50:38 AM verarara.:
your bday, ginny n i wanted to do a small n nice meet up with u, i wanted to buy a cake, bring our presents.. but u rmb what happened?
1/6/2008 3:51:16 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
huh? wat?
1/6/2008 3:51:25 AM verarara.:
we were both very disappointed. and if i recall ginny's msg correctly, she said 'i dunno what to say. all we wanted was to do smth nice for her bday.'
1/6/2008 3:51:55 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
you know, out of all ur friends, pn is prolly one of the truest to u.
1/6/2008 3:52:17 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
excuse me? my birthday.
1/6/2008 3:52:33 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u made plans to meet, but confirmed nothing at all, till last minute.
1/6/2008 3:52:41 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ur organisation skills are really bad.
1/6/2008 3:53:05 AM verarara.:
... we arranged to meet you. you overslept and got up and told us you did.
1/6/2008 3:53:21 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i did not oversleep.
1/6/2008 3:53:27 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
there was no confirmed time at all.
1/6/2008 3:53:35 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u did not confirm anything.
1/6/2008 3:54:24 AM verarara.:
pn one of the truest to me? where did u get that from? i know he's nice to me and i know he sincerely cares. but me and him has never reached a point where i'm comfortable with the way he talks.
1/6/2008 3:54:26 AM verarara.:
never.
1/6/2008 3:54:53 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
that is not the way u act ard him.
1/6/2008 3:55:09 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
anw, truest. becos he is one who will never backstab. always impartial.
1/6/2008 3:55:10 AM verarara.:
there was a confirmation a few days ago, or smth, really. just that on the night before the meet up, i msged u again, but somehow, u didnt reply.
1/6/2008 3:55:23 AM verarara.:
and that mornin we tried callin u and msgin u
1/6/2008 3:55:25 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i didnt reply cos there was no msg to reply to.
1/6/2008 3:55:40 AM verarara.:
u'd at least tell us, tt u ddint think there's a meet up.
1/6/2008 3:56:06 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
dont meet den anything la. not a first meetings are cancelled what.
1/6/2008 3:56:12 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
no reply means no meet.
1/6/2008 3:56:31 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
like how u din tell anyone of us u don get msges on ur old number anymore,
1/6/2008 3:56:44 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
we smsed quite a few meetups to that number.
1/6/2008 3:57:24 AM verarara.:
seriously. how can u say that.
1/6/2008 3:57:52 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
cos thats the truth
1/6/2008 3:58:04 AM verarara.:
we just wanted to do smth for yr bday. u dont hafta appreciate it. but u dont insult us liek tt.
1/6/2008 3:58:56 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i appreciate things well done, i'm not insulting both of u.
1/6/2008 3:59:32 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
it was bad organisation really.
1/6/2008 3:59:36 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
this is between u and me.
1/6/2008 3:59:39 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
don pull pppl in.
1/6/2008 3:59:50 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
this was not abt months ago.
1/6/2008 3:59:57 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u not happy bad then, say it back then./
1/6/2008 4:00:02 AM verarara.:
everything is blamed on bad organisation, ppl's planning.
1/6/2008 4:00:02 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
don drag up old issues now.
1/6/2008 4:00:16 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
if things were confirmed i would have gotten up.
1/6/2008 4:00:38 AM verarara.:
you're really fucked up.
1/6/2008 4:01:10 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
yes i am.
1/6/2008 4:01:11 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
so are u.
1/6/2008 4:01:14 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u are attention seeking.
1/6/2008 4:01:19 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
this is fucking ridiculous.
1/6/2008 4:01:34 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i'm trying to be calm and settle one thing.
1/6/2008 4:01:43 AM verarara.:
dc.
1/6/2008 4:01:44 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u are trying to win and bring up all past issues.
1/6/2008 4:02:36 AM verarara.:
u'r trying to run away probs pointed to u.
1/6/2008 4:02:39 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
the attention thing? is from everyone. not just me. i was reluctant to listen to them
1/6/2008 4:02:47 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ya. i am. like u're not.
1/6/2008 4:03:35 AM verarara.:
so who just said not to bring others into the picture?
1/6/2008 4:04:08 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
whats the connection
1/6/2008 4:04:21 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i'm telling u what ppl are saying.
1/6/2008 4:04:24 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
abt you.
1/6/2008 4:04:26 AM verarara.:
you want to say i'm attention seekin, so i am.
1/6/2008 4:04:33 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
yes u are
1/6/2008 4:04:33 AM verarara.:
u dont hafta bring others in.
1/6/2008 4:04:43 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
but thats what ppl say
1/6/2008 4:04:48 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
that make me realise its true
1/6/2008 4:04:51 AM verarara.:
if it really bothers them, they'll tell me.
1/6/2008 4:05:23 AM verarara.:
but that's beside the point of being late?
1/6/2008 4:05:42 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ok. thats true. but they dont care enuf to tell u? they're all just gossiping?
1/6/2008 4:06:00 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
I AM LATE. I AM PROUD OF IT.
1/6/2008 4:06:13 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
I HAVE BEEN LATE AS LONG AS U'VE KNOWN ME.
1/6/2008 4:07:19 AM verarara.:
so now i'm just trying to tell you that that's not being nice, and it does bothers me. so if we do meet in the future, pls try not to be late. but if you cant do that, i wont be beggin to meet u either.
1/6/2008 4:07:38 AM verarara.:
and i'm also trying to explain my clause for leavin that night.
1/6/2008 4:07:58 AM verarara.:
u'r late,. i have no obligation to wait for u.
1/6/2008 4:08:04 AM verarara.:
so i left.
1/6/2008 4:09:15 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i was not late.
1/6/2008 4:09:26 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
u left before stipulated meeting tyime.
1/6/2008 4:09:35 AM verarara.:
you didnt msg in agreement.
1/6/2008 4:09:39 AM verarara.:
no msg means no meet up.
1/6/2008 4:09:44 AM verarara.:
rmb? u jus said it.
1/6/2008 4:09:49 AM verarara.:
there, back to u.
1/6/2008 4:10:48 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
taking it back happily.
1/6/2008 4:10:54 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
commands need no replies.
1/6/2008 4:11:01 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
that was childish.
1/6/2008 4:11:32 AM verarara.:
it's fuckin cold i want to snuggle in my blankets can we please not go in circles!!!
1/6/2008 4:11:45 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
excuse me? who 's the one going in circles?
1/6/2008 4:11:48 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i said clearly.
1/6/2008 4:11:57 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i',m sry for shouting. thats IT.
1/6/2008 4:12:04 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
the boys were being their usual selves.
1/6/2008 4:12:06 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
the end.
1/6/2008 4:12:24 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
and on a seperate note, for ur own infomation, ppl think u are attention seeking.
1/6/2008 4:12:28 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
thats it.
1/6/2008 4:13:09 AM verarara.:
cassan, i love u. i do, as a friend. i'm not tryin to push all fault at you. i'm sorry i said fuck you. i'm sorry the things said here is ugly. but cassan, i just want to say what i dont like. and that's all.
1/6/2008 4:13:17 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
y izzit that u didnt have probs with my lateless since sec3, but only now. the only diff is cos u have a bf??
1/6/2008 4:13:40 AM verarara.:
i dont deny i'm attention seekin. so is everyone when everyone's down. we need some concern when we're. and the only way is to bring the attention of our friends, to us.
1/6/2008 4:13:43 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
i need to say what i dont like wither. which is nth really.
1/6/2008 4:13:53 AM verarara.:
and it happens that i only find them when i'm really down. and so it seems i'm very attention seekin.
1/6/2008 4:14:02 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
the way u do it make ppl hate it really.. i hate hearing things bout you.
1/6/2008 4:14:47 AM verarara.:
on "y izzit that u didnt have probs with my lateless since sec3, but only now. the only diff is cos u have a bf??" it's not that i didnt have probs then, it's just that i finally feel i want to say/do smth bout it.
1/6/2008 4:14:57 AM verarara.:
havin a bf or not is nothin.
1/6/2008 4:15:15 AM verarara.:
i cant hug him n cry when i quarrel with him or if he runs away
1/6/2008 4:15:30 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
thats true.. but that point apart, other things.
1/6/2008 4:15:38 AM verarara.:
dont always think tt my life only revolves ard my bf or tt u guys are my only friends.
1/6/2008 4:15:45 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
bf first: u do behave very differently when with/ when u have a bf.
1/6/2008 4:16:18 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
once again, thought not from me alone. i'm not trying to prove i have backing, just... donno la. so u know what ppl are sayin.
1/6/2008 4:16:27 AM verarara.:
so i do, but who doesnt? even u can say xy does. and for a time u did too.
1/6/2008 4:16:35 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
yes. i know u have lots of friends. but warning; not all trustable.
1/6/2008 4:16:56 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ya. and she still is different with her bf- but when alone with us without bf, she's same..
1/6/2008 4:17:06 AM verarara.:
u dont hafta say anyone else said it too cos smths i just trust tt others might have said it too.
1/6/2008 4:17:23 AM verarara.:
but i'm not bothered nor am i gonna explain anything to them cos they do not matter.
1/6/2008 4:17:46 AM verarara.:
cos if i matter to them, they'd tell me straight n not just talk behind me.
1/6/2008 4:17:58 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ibabe, if u knew who they were, i think they do matter.
1/6/2008 4:18:32 AM verarara.:
girl, u'r missin my point. they dont matter as long as they dont tell me. be it xy, ginny whoever.
1/6/2008 4:18:54 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
they do not. that's the point. out of 10 ppl, how many will shout at ppl to fuck outta their way when coming outta trains, and how many will only "tsk"
1/6/2008 4:19:17 AM verarara.:
and yet they still choose to take trains.
1/6/2008 4:19:29 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
out of point.
1/6/2008 4:19:49 AM verarara.:
no. if it matters so much to them, they tell me. if they dont, they can dont meet me.
1/6/2008 4:20:06 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
aiya. whatever la. i just want u to know what ppl are saying. if it dosent matter to u den forget it. 1/6/2008 4:20:15 AM verarara.:
*if they are those who doesnt speak up, they can choose not to arrange meet ups with me.
1/6/2008 4:21:26 AM verarara.:
which i thought was what's happenin until u mentioned they might have msged my old no.
1/6/2008 4:21:40 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
the boys: they are capable of being real friends, who will never betray ur trust, and u can trust them to be honest. they talk nonsense; but thats just them being boys.
1/6/2008 4:21:56 AM verarara.:
let's not talk about the boys. i'll talk to them myself.
1/6/2008 4:22:00 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
uh- i sent a hell lot of msges to that number lor.
1/6/2008 4:22:40 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
was wondering y e hell u din reply.. was a wtf moment when i realised
1/6/2008 4:23:03 AM verarara.:
i didnt have money most of the time to pay up the bills until they gotta cut it off.
1/6/2008 4:23:16 AM verarara.:
so it keeps gettin cut off n conencted again.
1/6/2008 4:23:37 AM verarara.:
i can only cancel it when the contract finishes in mar or smth.
1/6/2008 4:23:49 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ok... but the new number is permanent??
1/6/2008 4:23:50 AM verarara.:
i'm sorry i didnt see those msges and thought u guys forgot me.
1/6/2008 4:23:54 AM verarara.:
811*****.
1/6/2008 4:23:59 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
GRRRR. u have no idea.
1/6/2008 4:23:59 AM verarara.:
yepps
1/6/2008 4:24:32 AM verarara.:
can i please say this again...
1/6/2008 4:24:51 AM verarara.:
whether i have bf or not, i've jsut decided i need a change.
1/6/2008 4:25:20 AM verarara.:
i need my friends to know that i really dont like waitin ard for friends when they're late.
1/6/2008 4:26:07 AM verarara.:
it bothers me so much that sometimes, when u all ask me out, say 10pm, i'd hafta say no bcos knowin u guys, u'd prob reach 11plus mayb 12.
1/6/2008 4:26:16 AM verarara.:
and that's e time i'll hafta head home.
1/6/2008 4:26:42 AM verarara.:
u can tell me u wouldnt want to change anything of you, it's alright.
1/6/2008 4:27:07 AM verarara.:
my change is that i'm going to be really calculative from now on.
1/6/2008 4:28:24 AM verarara.:
ever since the operation, i was racing against time, earnin money, coping with studies, squeezed in meet ups, i've come to realised how much time i've wasted in my past 20yrs jus waitin for friends to be there.
1/6/2008 4:28:29 AM verarara.:
i'm tired.
1/6/2008 4:28:44 AM verarara.:
i really am.
1/6/2008 4:28:57 AM verarara.:
i could have been ding so many other things like catchin up on my sleep, so many times.
1/6/2008 4:29:09 AM verarara.:
when i chose to arrange meet ups with friends.
1/6/2008 4:30:12 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
we all make choices and sacrifices sometimes.
1/6/2008 4:30:49 AM verarara.:
i'm making a choice to stop making those sacrifices.
1/6/2008 4:32:04 AM verarara.:
and dont worry for me, i do have very heartfelt friends.
1/6/2008 4:32:25 AM verarara.:
you're among them.
1/6/2008 4:32:38 AM verarara.:
that's why i choose to tell you my decision.
1/6/2008 4:33:02 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
ok. nice to know, but really, i can't be early. not for you, not for cliff, not for my ma..
1/6/2008 4:33:05 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
sorry.
1/6/2008 4:33:30 AM verarara.:
then it's ok. just dont be late at our weddings.
1/6/2008 4:33:49 AM verarara.:
i think that's prob the next time we'll meet.
1/6/2008 4:33:53 AM verarara.:
goodnight.
1/6/2008 4:34:46 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
k then. nites.
1/6/2008 4:34:49 AM She walks in beauty like the night.:
all the best
thoughts later.