vera in context.
vera's johari
(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!)
ARIES WOMAN
>>
>>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal
>>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things
>>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even
>>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one.
>>She
>>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for
>>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.
>>
>>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This
>>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face
>>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up,
>>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing
>>or mixture of character.
>>
>>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She
>>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize
>>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will
>>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other
>>people
>>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in
>>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing,
>>nothing will stop her.
>>
>>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another
>>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty
>>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.
>>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold
>>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she
>>choose you, she will need to be proud of you.
>>
>>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is
>>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She
>>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also
>>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance
>>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do
>>not
>>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.
>>
>>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come
>>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth
>>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even
>>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident"
>>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you
>>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time.
>>
>>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent
>>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a
>>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most
>>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and
>>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her
>>beautiful
>>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan.
>>
>>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high
>>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will
>>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself
>>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure.
>>
>>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is
>>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,
>>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing
>>it.
i want/i need.
air. love. food. air. air. air.
way overdued.i was chatting with crystal several weeks back...
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:50 PM):
hai... i was lookin at my past photos of those clubbin days...
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:50 PM):
i've changed so much in these 9 mths w jianwei..
wat should i believe in? says (11:50 PM):
then?
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:50 PM):
i'm no longer the confident, sexy vera...
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:50 PM):
hor? haha!wat should i believe in? says (11:50 PM):
more demure?
wat should i believe in? says (11:51 PM):
haha still confident n sexy but mayb nt so wild n loud
wat should i believe in? says (11:51 PM):
u don like urself now?
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:52 PM):
dunno leh.. i feel i've become a auntie.
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:52 PM):
i no longer shop n make myself pretty... no longer keep in trends.
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:52 PM):
and i really miss the wild n loud side.
wat should i believe in? says (11:54 PM):
oh mayb its ur chen li ping's hairstyle?all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:54 PM):
hahahahaha CRYSTAL!!!!
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:54 PM):
dont make me cry can!
wat should i believe in? says (11:54 PM):
u can always be wild n loud bt still a darlin to jw
wat should i believe in? says (11:54 PM):
haha
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:55 PM):
haha but first i gotta lose the 3kgs i gained n the 3kgs i'm suppose to lose! (actually i need more than that! i need a new hairdo, a need wardrobe, a new skin, new lungs, new mindset wiped off my current experiences, new energy like when i was 17, or better, if i have the energy of sarah's dog!)
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:55 PM):
bahhh.
wat should i believe in? says (11:56 PM):
haha can la all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:56 PM):
haha u duno how lazy, yet greedy i am la..
wat should i believe in? says (11:57 PM):
slp more lo its wouldnt make u feel like eating as muchall i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:59 PM):
ya everyday, i sleep till cows come home then i try to find smth to do.. usually go out.. then i go home continue sleep again...
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:59 PM):
my life is mundane.
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:59 PM):
everyday there's smth to do, smth to look forward to, smth to rush to, smth to work on. but i feel so stale. there's no excitment, like i can almost look forward to end of the world day and yays, finally something cool happening!! you know?!wat should i believe in? says (12:00 AM):
mm i feel old when i go club cos b4 n i can barely keep my eyes open anymore. and i feel so tired for the next 3 or 4 days
wat should i believe in? says (12:01 AM):
i think mus go out w ur friends more wat should i believe in? says (12:01 AM):
then u wouldnt feel like u r missin out in lifeall i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (12:01 AM):
i knw... these days other than work and school, i only go out with jianwei n his friends. but they're ppl i really look forward to meeting up all the time!!
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (12:02 AM):
until i feel like i'm no longer social active, even tho i'm really still socially active. u knw what i mean? haha.wat should i believe in? says (12:03 AM):
must go out w ur own friends also if nt later every1 will jus be distant
and then i had the same conversation with jianwei...
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:47 PM):
so much has changed in this past 9mths...
Vera's Jianwei says (11:48 PM):
=)
Vera's Jianwei says (11:48 PM):
for the better?
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:48 PM):
well rls wise i guess it is...
Vera's Jianwei says (11:48 PM):
then in other aspects?
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:49 PM):
but somehow i feel i'm no longer the sexy, confident vera that used to rock(at least i think i did for a time). u knw what i mean?
Vera's Jianwei says (11:49 PM):
yup..
Vera's Jianwei says (11:49 PM):
it's like maturing i guess..
Vera's Jianwei says (11:49 PM):
a fun loving and hip grandma is fun to be with..
Vera's Jianwei says (11:50 PM):
but you'd expect her to be wise and more graceful and classy at the same time...
Vera's Jianwei says (11:50 PM):
i think maybe you've grown...
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
well you're still young, but you're more understanding of yourself too..
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:51 PM):
WHAT GRANDMA!!!!
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:51 PM):
THAT'S DAMN BAD LA.
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
that's just an example la..
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
hahahahaall i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:51 PM):
I WANTED TO SAY AUNTIE N I FELT SO MISERABLE BOUT IT ALR. U STILL CAN SAY GRANDMA
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
like you know.. hahahhahaha
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
wait
Vera's Jianwei says (11:51 PM):
like you know..
Vera's Jianwei says (11:52 PM):
you grow up and slowly lose the childish behavior but yet you know inside you it'll never really die out..
all i want in this life of sin is me and my stud. says (11:57 PM):
ahhh IS IT ME OR THE WORDS YOU SAID, i just checked, even my breasts got wrinkles!!!!Vera's Jianwei says (11:57 PM):
hahahhahaAND I SO DO NOT LOOK LIKE CHEN LING OKAY!! right after i chopped off my hair and gained a good 3kgs, jianwei came up with this idea that i look like chen li ping.
no i am not fat.
no i am not fat.
no i am not fat.
and i'm not a grandma... =(
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 at 12:07 AM
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'i can never understand what it is about being human that allows one to become fixed on small matters and think the world would collapse if things don't go the way one wants them. once i got that struggle out of my system, i could never understand why it had been so important to me. but for those first few weeks, it had.' - torey hayden.
i've just finished this book 'one child' by torey hayden. it's a very inspirational true story of this 6-year-old girl who was thrown out of people's lives, physically abused and eventually even inhumanely sexually abused. if you're interested, i've the book, i dont mind lending. =) i'm looking forward to read the sequel story about the girl, 7 years later.
Friday, October 19, 2007 at 5:08 PM
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no one loves vera.i bet...
my project group members are angry with me cos i havent been able to contribute my adequate share of workload.
my parents are pissed as voiced by my dad that my ungodly work timings have made me come home everyday with a foul mood, jumping and complaining at the smallest irks.
jianwei is never gonna forgive and forget that i lied to him bout a job i accepted on mon n tues, but eventually spilled the beans cos i cant take the guilt of hiding something from him.
the other girls want me no more as i am shelling myself in my shithole and they probably forgot i ever existed.
the people at work thinks i'm too fat to be in this job.
i'm miserable and i'm feeling fucking sorry for myself, and that sucks even more cos it makes me hate myself that i'm such a emo weakling.
but i'm really miserable. and no amount of concern, money or love can possibly bring me out of this bout of probably-self-developed depression.
and i know, only i can pull myself up.
but for now, i just want to wallow in self-pity. or do i really?
Thursday, October 18, 2007 at 11:12 PM
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lend a hand, or a hug.hope you guys been fine. i'm sorry for the lack of updates and getting updated, i've been awfully busy with work.
my current most daily routine is:
4.30am, get my ass up, prepare.
5.30am, leave house to catch first bus at 5.45am.
6.00am, catch a cab to changi airport T2, which usually also includes make up and changing to uniform in cab. too bad cabdrivers, i'm superbly skilled at not chao-kenging.
6.20am, change the stupid pass to get into the departure hall.
6.45am, report at the booth on the dot or get screwed by the bloody bitches at CAAS.
7.00am, start of game show, which involves 45mins at T2, then travel to T1 for second show.
8.30am, end of T1 game show, skytrain back to T2, get changed.
8.45am, bus back home.
10.00am, home sweet home, makan, lalaland.
3.00pm, up and about again.
3.30pm, bus to changi airport
4.45pm, reach and get changed.
5.00pm, report.
5.30pm, start game show same routin for T2 and T1.
7.00pm, bang gang!
8.30pm, dinner and prob coffee or movies with dear to unwind from the hectic-ness right from before dawn breaks.
11.00pm, reach home.
12.00pm, bed crash.
it's especially stressful in the morning as i really cant be any minute late for work or there'll be the irritating and unreasonably threat of pay cut by the motherfucker bitches working at CAAS, and i hafta pay my own cab fare even though i really am forced to take it as my first bus starts too late to get there in time. =( some mornings i get so scared that i cant reach on time that my hands started trembling and by the end of morning gameshow i just wish i can fall flat on the ground. and 3rd day onwards i've been feeling so so shitty that my mood is just horrible when i meet up with dear. on top of that, this job really cause me to gain weight cos waking up early means eating one extra meal, and when i get home in the morning, i'll take an early lunch and sleep straightaway and have the calories accumulated on my tummy, my thighs, my bums, my arms, my toes... grr.
BUT, what to do? i really need the money for the ones i lost in my absolutely unlucky last month - the operation and the fucking fine.
and so, if you haven heard from me or think that i dont care bout you anymore, i'm sorry. here's a few people i'm really have not seen or hear from and am missing right now, ginny, joy, cassan and sheryl. when this shitty period in my life is over, i'm gonna rock this town and you guys, be there or be squared!!! =)
Friday, October 05, 2007 at 11:46 PM
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