i am trying on 'moving on'.
some time ago after playing dota, i was fagging at slightly after 3am, before i head home for bed; when i saw this auntie carrying 2-3bags of cans. i felt sad but very lucky at the same time. i have never needed to stay up till 3am to collect 10-20?bucks worth of cans for like 2-3hrs? not even close. i used to get money when i ask for, and i'd been spending them like nobody's business.
and now that i've started a new chapter in life, everything is hard, and easy, at the same time. people being there for me, ready to catch me and lend a hand.
thank you all. and i especially thank my boss who's been most motherly caring to me.
i have been asked enough.
i know i have not been blogging. i want to blog, but i dont know what to. thing is, i'm tired of explaining what happened, or maybe not ready still. and, i cant bring myself to blog bout something else, like my daily affairs; cos it will seem like it's all over and i'm totally onto the next chapter. no, i am not, and i'm feel that i'm still stuck, and i cant seem to be able to put anything behind or forward.
for those who dont know-yet, it's been a whirlwind of events of the relationships in my life. i have moved out of my house, and am on the road to 'forced-quicken independency' cos my parents beat me up again. this time should be the worst of all those previous times, i had to go to tts for an examination for it. and, at 22, it really scares me shitless cos it seems, my parents are not beating me up to 'teach me' any longer, but to vent their anger.

this picture is taken 1 week after the event and those 2 are the more prominent bruises.
hm.. i think i have a little self-pitying right to say, life's been a little hard on me these days. work has been really hectic, waking up early and having to mug even with the tiredness for those exams-another one coming up this coming friday.
oh, and i'm quite proud to say, i achieved a 94% for my first paper, 89% for my second paper, 84% for the fourth paper, and third paper i passed but we werent told of out result. and these exams were taken the day right after i had a serious gastritis attack during morning break. it was so painful i could hardly breathe nor stand, and i was 'crying my heard out'-as the doctor said, in the canteen cos the pain was almost unbearable. i was sent to my workplace's clinic and i wasnt allowed to leave for class when i was told by my classmate that the class we were having cannot be missed or i will have to take it with another class.
as much as i miss and really need the support and concern from my dear friends, i cant seem to find any time for meet ups - thus ginny, i havent contacted you to reschedule you for the last 'pangseh' meet up, i'm sorry.
please drop me a message, whoever cares, it will help me in a lot of ways. and oh ya, after this friday's paper, i'd be a little more free and will be able to do catch ups then.
till then.