Purely Your Imagination

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vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

this is as bad as it gets.
Cassan has left a new comment on your post "and this is how this started.":

Question.

You have Gary's, Ben's and my email and mobile number. If you have such a huge problem with us, why do you not just contact us straight but instead make a mole hill out of nothing, then a mountain out of that mole hill.

If you had stayed till the actual meeting time of 10pm, you would have realised that I reached before 10.10pm, which is the earliest I have been all year.
i cant believe you're even proud of this. being only 10mins late is the best thing you've all year, for meeting YOUR FRIENDS, and you dont feel any guilt about it?

I'll apologise for just one thing. For shouting in the phone- "whatever la, just forget it la." or something close. I was already emo-ing the whole day, plus i had a veryvery bad migrain. YET i actually left the house to meet you to return you your stuff, but you left before the stipulated meeting time. now who is the irresponsible one.
you know what, i had diaheorre and gastric the WHOLE WEEK and that caused me a couple of sleepless nights before the meeting day and just when i was able to catch some winks, it was time to meet y'all and i contemplated to be late which was why i msged y'all to meet at 10 instead; but when gary said 'we're here.' i rushed down straight and reached before 9.30pm, still goggly and all. so should i's say i'm sorry i mistook gary's "we" as you and him and rushed down for YOU and him(i didnt even bother to draw my eyebrows which is SO important to me - though bimbotic). being responsible isn't just about getting your ass out of your house as promised, it's about being on time too, wouldnt you agree so? stipulated time is a time agreed by both parties, which was 9.30pm. 10pm was a suggestion by me, but no confirmation on your part because you DID NOT reply at all and did not bother to pick up my calls! like i said if u'd bothered to read, how would i to know if you were gonna fly my plane - AGAIN???

I said i'd return you your top that day. And since i couldn't, the next best thing was to pass it to ben cos he meets you much more than I meet either of you anyway. What is so irresponsible about getting your top to you asap, especially when i know it would be in good hands?
seriously, this point is just so stupid i dont even feel like arguing about this. you cant return me my shirt on the agreed day so you handed it to a friend you THINK we meet more than you and i do, when in truth the ratio of me meeting him to me meeting you is probably 1:2. and you feel that that is being responsible? honestly, if you can tell me in my face that you werent the least bit anger-oriented when you decided to leave the shirt with him, i'd tell you i'm sincerely am sorry i doubted your intention.

In the first place, why did you leave? I heard the boys say that you said something about them shooting their mouths off. Really, did they?

They were talking about Peirong. Why and how did that link to you. They talked the usual way they would. You really thought too much about what they said, and over reacted. They were being their usual selves, I do not know why that upset you so much that you walked out.
this is how the conversation went.
me - huh? peirong has bf?
them - ya la. you think only you can have bf ppl cannot have bf?
me - what.. i'm asking only what, i didnt know she has a bf.
them - she thinks peirong no rights to have bf just cos she's black what.
them again - you think you very pretty so got bf ah.
me - eh... dont overdo it la, i was just asking, make me feel like going home sia.
gary - also no one asking you to stay you want to go you go lah!

enough said.

If you did not over react, everything would be ok now.

But no, you made something out of nothing, and blew that something up into “Cassan is irresponsible”.

I'm sorry I yelled into the phone. That's really it. If you're logical and calm enough to look at things from a third person's view, you will realise that there really wasn't anything wrong at all with the boys’ conversation.

I would have replied you immediately, if only you had approached me directly. what happened to the girl i knew? the one who always claimed that she was straightforward?
number one. sms can only contain 160alphabets in 1sms. number two. you're hardly online. number three. you realise whenever i do confrontations, i'd either do it face to face or by sms. and as this situation has hit my limit, i decided i cant do a face to face this time round; and this problem definitely takes more than 5-6pages of sms. LASTLY, i expected you always read blogs cos at least you did until your sudden resolution also dunno come from where one; and by this way of confrontation, i deemed this as already being very straightforward.

The boys were there. If you thought they were hinting things about you, why did you not just confront them there and then? would it not have made things much simpler.
i did. and you know what they said. and 1 sick person is no fight for 2 big mouths.

Just like how you were talking to Jason on msn, and msged ppl to ask what he meant, instead of just asking him straight?

and you know what hurts?

"I can't call jianwei to tell him cos he's slping." that was 4am in the morning. Thank you very much for waking everyone, as long as it wasn't your boyfriend. That pinched really. and makes ppl wonder how much you value your friends.
this, i'm really shock(cos i thought you usually sleep at 6am). but, sincerely, i am sorry and i did not mean it the way you thought.

each time you have a boyfriend you just disappear. i'm not the only one who thinks this, but i'll tell you one thing; i'm prolly the only one who will bother to tell you to your face.

you want ppl to spend all moments with you- happy and sad. sure, we can. but can you? every single time you've asked us out, it's some couple thing with your bf. either that or it's very badly organised, such nth is really confirmed.
if i didnt understand and realise this point myself, i might not have showed up at the class bqq and even if i did, i might have came with my bf. and thank you for bringing this point up cos you mentioning this makes me have the right to be angry about that bbq night! meeting time was 7.30 or was it 8, well no matter, cos you guys reached at 9! you guys, the ones i really wanted to see! and when i was there, you guys barely spoke to me, nor bothered to ask if i was feeling better. for a couple of long while i was just sitting beside you guys stoning away because i found no way to interrupt into your conversations. not to mention that before you guys reached, i had to tahan gary and ben's words. so what if they are always like that? i stated i dont like it and gary said, 'you want you go home la. no one begging you to stay.' seriously, how would you feel? you're sick, you bothered to show up at the class bbq you'd usually give it a miss cos there's the group that you're never close to after retaining in sec3. yet you showed up, and with a bonus - you feel, cos you made an effort to ask your bf not to come; and the people who said wants to see you and whom you also are eager to see, made you wait over an hour. and when they finally reached; they seldom talk to you nor did they even show any concern after you mentioned that you're sick.

Please realise that sometimes we just want girl time, or sec sch friends time? and not yiwenjianwei time?

this friendship? i treasure; no point giving up now after surviving through so many ups and downs. i treasure all my friendships. i respect couples and that they want to spend time together too. There are couple days, everyone-together days, but most importantly, friends only days. where ppl want to meet and bitch without bothering bout the significant others.

and yes, despite many things, i'll still say that you're a very nice girl, a very nice friend. just that you tend to distant yourself when you have a boyfriend, or just drag your boy along to everything.
very honestly, after this message, i'm beginning to doubt you truly feel i'm nice/that you like me. cos if so, you might stop and think, how many times have i flare up like that with friends? close to never. and thus so think, 'maybe she might be the least bit right? or wrong? let's call her and talk about it instead of giving a full-force rebuttal without even bothering to read what actually went wrong.'

we all would love to meet you. but just you. no, it's not that we dislike your bf, it's just that we want "us" time.

You know, of all the quarrels we've had, this is the only redundant one really.

what happened that day i thought would just go away. i told myself i'd apologise for shouting when mext i saw you. i didn't realise that it would boil to this at all.
and dont worry about this. the least i'm upset about is you shouting at me, cos it's not the first nor the least time you reply me with your irritated tone on the smallest matter.

btw, i still have not read. it's one of my new year's resolution to spend minimal time reading blogs. =)
please do. i guess you heard whatever you did from friends. but if you still cherish this friendship, please do. and let me know when you did. let's arrange a meet up.

Posted by Cassan to verainpolaroids; for visual membrance. at 1:42 AM

Sunday, January 06, 2008 at 1:50 AM

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