Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

i have to stand strong, for once.

i will admit i've been counting the days till you sms me and initiate a make up; and constantly checking your blog for an entry in response to my previous entry. well, there's been nothing. but unlike the past when something between us went wrong, where i'd be angry for awhile then i'd be the one trying my best to salvage the friendship. i wont this time, it's time i put a stop to the things i dont deserve.

perhaps you've already put the whole issue behind and you've been busy and like what you always do, you only read friends' blog once in a blur moon, so you dont know how upset i've been about the whole incident. but perhaps too, you're still angry for me going off that night but have not seen my entry on how i felt about things. or you might have seen, but you dont think you're wrong. i dont know.

but since you've not responded in any way, i'm given a chance to add in this. remember the times when we talked about our past squabbles and you told me you feel stupid about them and that you're sorry and you wouldnt want to lose me as a friend cos i'm a nice friend? i hope you'll remember your words and hold them true. cos this time, if things really totally sour up between us, i will stand firm and; will not beg for the friendship and take it as though nothing had ever happened between us when you finally decide you still want this friend, as i used to.
by saying that, i dont mean that i ever pretended that nothing happened between us. it is just that, i've never taken things to heart, to me, friendship is more important than squabbling over who's right and who's wrong-and you know it. i still uphold that principle. but back then, i handled things wrong and seem to always have been begging for the friendship back, and that's probably why now, i feel i've been taken for granted.

now i'd say, i'm drawing a fine line to what i deserve and what i dont. if you feel we should try to talk things out and make things fine, drop me a msg, i promise i wont treat you any differently as i did before. all i ask is that you for once, initiate to salvage the friendship. if you dont, here's thank you for the memories. (and for jianwei too.)

on a lighter note, here's pictures from ginny's birthday.

these are part of the honored 15s. the party theme was Bows. and i bought a minnie mouse helium balloon to the party. yes, minnie mouse's bow. =) but bringing the mouse out of my house to her house is such a bitch. all that cars slowing down to see my minnie, one even horned, while i was waiting for cab. and after like 30mins from looking like a looney, i called a cab. expensive shit. haha. peak hour surcharge plus call charge. pfft to cab fares. anyway i know i didnt bring a more...proper present. i promise, next year onwards when i start work, i will! =p

talking bout cabfares, let's all campaign against the increasing of cab fares by not taking cabs please! actually, i saw the response to the increment already. just now at ps taxi stand and the bus stop in front there were so many taxis queuing for customers, unlike how it used to be when i have to rush home around that hour, i'd be frantically flagging for a taxi. hopefully this goes on during the weekends, then whoohoo! they'll sure to lower the rates back.

i so so so want to watch the dajeeling limited. think i'm gonna love the soundtrack too.

Friday, December 28, 2007 at 1:27 AM

Y Y Y

miss pricky is my new name.

contributed by a bout of 6days diarhaeor and very bad gastric pains since last thurs' visit to carnivore, subsequent bbq on fri, catered buffet on sat; and menses from mon.

i'll talk about my miss pricky episodes later.

last thurs(6/12) was a celebration of end of papers for JiJi dear

30bucks after gst and everything per person, carnivore is THE deal for ultimate meat lovers like me.

the chefs will come out with loaves of meat and slice freshly onto your plate. and dont worry about not having enough, they are told if they dont finish serving what they came out of the kitchen with, they hafta shove the rest into their rectums, so they'll pile on your plate even though you've got the 'no thanks' card faced up.

SEADAPPPPP!!

sorry balls, no unglam gluttoning pictures of me, though i'd say when it comes to eating my favourite bleeding red meat, i've the most unglam face.

very very satisfied.

"WAH! the snowman tree so cute!! i wana take act cute picture with it!!!"

then, fi the extra, totally beat me at MY act cute picture... look at his face.

there, MY act cute picture. =p

rudolph the red nose reindeer.

...fi beat us to it again!

JiJi dear in his quite uncle attire and very uncle pose. hehe!

"aiyo, yao bao zhong oh!" *pat on my hand*

laughed my balls off...

and then we did some kinky thing to burn the fats from Carnivore meal.

last fri(7/12) class gathering bbq at pasir ris park. no pictures cos i left early due to the very first day of my diarrhaeo and gastric pains. the others took pictures, and honestly i do feel a tad #(*$% no one bothered to take pictures with me when i was around and only take pictures after i left? besides this, the miss pricky episodes developed here. i'm not sure if it's cos i've not seen ben and pink nipples for ages and have becomed very unaccustomed to their very irritating mouths or if they're really getting more and more verbally-insulting, i was pretty much affected by the things they jest me with that i was on the verge of heading home half an hour after i got there plus the people whom i was hoping to see, werent there yet. more about this part later.

then, sat(8/12) was ginny's 21st. i'd do a update as soon as she sent me the pictures. and meanwhile, i must say i'm very honored to be among her 15s invited. =) ginny, you know i love you too. hope you had a very merry birthday and better years to come, ditch those unhappy memories please honeybuns!!

ok here's miss pricky episodes.

the bbq part, i've mentioned. i was already pretty irritated by the 2boys' mouths. so a couple of days ago, i was supposed to meet up with cassan and pink nipples to collect my stuff from them, at some soya bean place at 9.30pm. 9pm i msged them and ask if we'd meet later at 10pm instead cos i partly assumed that they might be late too, and overslept. but pink nipples replied that '...we're already here.' so i immediately rushed out of house and cabbed over and got there at 9.20pm to realised the 'we' was actually ben and pink nipples and not cassan and the latter. so, i tried calling cassan twice and she doesnt pick up and; cos she also didnt reply to my earlier msg, i assumed she must have overslept like the previous few times she did. besides this, the whole time ben n pink nipples were doing their probably unintentional yet very offensive talking again. so i decided i've had it, why should i tolerate these?? and so 9.50pm, i decided to head home. and right on the cab, cassan called at about 9.55pm and demanded, 'didnt you say meet at 10pm?' and when i said i'm sorry but i'm already on a cab home, she hung up on me and later on threw my shirt with ben and expect me to get it from him instead.

cassan, i didnt receive a single msg that you agreed to meet at 10pm. and it was 9.50pm when you said you were just in the lift going down to the bus stop, could you have really reached at 10pm? and that aside, how many times have these supposed to meet but you slept through and no matter how many calls i made you didnt pick up to tell me at the very least you cant make it, till very much later, happened? how can you blame me to assume that the similar has happened? and the shirt along with the other clothes were lent to you on no conditions, how could you just threw the responsibility of returning the shirt to me, to ben???

this incident has really had me shaken. honestly, in these years of knowing you, the only time i truly felt cherished was the birthday card you wrote me. i was so touched i cried because i felt those were very sincere and very cherished words from a friend of so many years, whom i've been through quite some times with. but most times, pretty pathetically but i'm not ashamed to let you know, i find that i'm more afraid of losing you as my friend than you do.

in fact, i'd say that cassan isnt the only friend whom i feel more afraid of losing than the other party. i hold every one of my friendships very strongly. even though i seldom meet up with my friends since jianwei came about, i do cherish each and every one of my friendships very much, and this, i can cross my heart and swear.

but recently, i've come to realise a lot of things. and i start to wonder if joy and jianwei have been right all along. they are the only people who's been telling me that i'm probably short-changed and been taken for granted for.

thus miss pricky has decided that she will no longer tolerate nor should she deserve in the first place, to tolerate unpleasant treatment from ANY friends. she feels it's time to speak up and if the below said is considered any way unacceptably not-nice-to-your-ears to you, she would like you to at the very least think first, how would you feel if you were in her shoes; and if you still start resenting her because of this, she isnt gonna beg for the friendship either.

1. tardiness. there's absolutely nothing nice or acceptable about 'fashionable late'. if i can ditch the things i had to do, just so i can reach a place in time at the time discussed and decided, i dont see why cant you. seriously, that's no way to treat friends who trusted that you must have had something urgent, thus you were late. but when this happens once too often? taking things for granted? where's the courtesy for your FRIENDS? i'm not just talking about cassan here, if you think i'm talking about you, yes i very well am. you you you you you. so many of yous!! what's with you all?! ladies and gentlemen, you are all at least 20 and above lads! where's the sense of responsibility, time management, propper planning? really, if you cant respect the basic courtesy of being on time to meet your friends, i dont see how you can succeed in your other aspects of life. and, for those who are thinking it's because you only do on-time-meetings with prioritised people, it applies as well, really; plus, do let me know if i'm among the un-prioritised, it's really fine by me you know, it's not like i'm dying to meet you if you're such a friend.

2. mind your words. i'm not only pinpointing ben and pink nipples though i mentioned their names earlier on. there's that friend of jianwei i'd given my piece of mind to too, and ironically, this seems to be a boys problem. guys, you dont say the things you shouldnt say, to a friend, though long-termed, but hasnt seen y'all for a very long time; or to someone whom you've only met once or twice. and when warned that what y'all have been saying is unpleasant, please pick up the hint that it's time to watch your mouth unless you really dont want me there at all, by all means, tell me straight! really. i dont understand why people like to verbally shoot people, whether close or not. does that give you a kick in life, make you day, or is that your only form of getting a conversation started?

that's all.

on a lighter note, if you think that i'm not afraid of losing friendships now because i've jianwei and his group of friends, that's not true at all. but i'd say, i'm very very thankful for them, their relationship with each other and the way they treat me are parts of the reason i start to see how friendships really should be like.

Monday, December 17, 2007 at 2:14 AM

Y Y Y