seasons change.sometimes i get
really too upset for joy about the whole incident she went through with neyton and the slut. and i dont understand why i even get so personal with all that's happened, that's supposedly strictly nothing to do with me besides that joy is my closest friend and neyton used to be my good friend.
i understand how revengeful a woman can get after a break up, especially one that involves a third party. but i absolutely dont understand if that comes from the girlfriend's friend. nor can i imagine anyone else can.
the only sane reason might be that, i love joy a lot. she's been through a lot of downs in relationships. and neyton is the first, official and, serious one she's had and i know how much she'd went through with him, and i so hoped that all will work out between them and i couldnt bear to see them part, i'll admit almost in the selfish way a kid will feel towards his marriage-problematic parents.
oh well, lesson learnt. never be too chummy with your girlfriends' boyfriends.
saved drafts posted.15august2007let's play pretend.always on my mind.
jianwei.

despite our continual hiccups here and there, i gotta be thankful that at least i havent got a bastard of a bf whom i walk into his room and find a slut sleeping beside him.
this is the bastard:
http://profiles.friendster.com/2725484how he says he's still thinkin bout everything that's happened, and waitin for a chance to start anew with joy and then shows evidences of him currently hooked up in the 'it's complicated' manner with that slut he picked up at zouk, totally irks me. watch it, you'll get a share of vera's sweet revenge meant for bfs of bestfriends only, you fucking sonofabitch.
and this is the slut:
http://profiles.friendster.com/ybagabushow she captions her photos 'dont stray', 'dont ever go away' and play 'sway' on her profile, really sets me off in huge ironical laughter. i swear if i ever see her in the streets i'd call her slut in her face and if courage permits, slap her so hard neyton drops her straight off like the sloth that exits my bowels.
07august2007i'm forcibly introduced to dota and totally addicted to it. it was like when my brother and i were younger, we'd play warcraft and red alert and dablo all the time.
well anyway, on a random day during dinner,
jianwei asked - why did you buy radiance ; crystalliz?
me - huh? cos the colour is nice?
-silence-
jianwei - that's so not bimbo...
i thought he was talking bout my color contact lenses which brand happen to be radiance and color happen to be crystallise or smth. for those who dont play dota, those 2 are items you buy when playin dota to 'increase power', etc..
10april2007bigs girls dont cry.its hard to determine if I'm 20 turning 21 or 20 turning 13.
it never occurred to me how important it is to cherish your youthi know this may sound a wee bit dramatic since I'm merely turning 21..
i dread the birthdays to come,where forever i will always be treatedwith expectations to that of an adult.goals, success and failures.
heartbreaks, betrayals and love.denial and reality.thing is, i do not look forward to responsibilities and independence.i just want the key to freedom, the no strings attached form.looks like we never(make that hardly, since there's jianwei) get the bests of the world.anyway, here's a very very late entry on the 21st'es, mine and some girls.
when midnight struck.






the surprise was well played. i was so touched, due to many combining factors, i cried.

sometimes, you just know this wont be the first and last birthday spent together. =)


my
first ever real bouquet of flowers, what more, from a guy! =D

the next day or something, this came in the post.




so much love all the way from aussieland. thanks cassiesaurus, your card made me cry too. i'm such a crypuss when it comes to sentimental matters.
birthday itself in school.opening eepei's (first) present...


<--whatever is that look on my face lah(reminds me of this happytreefriend character). then crystal's and clara's present.


i like the yummy chocolate brown!
had to make an enquiry bout my phoneline at starhub, and jianwei attempted another surprise by suddenly showin up. heh, not that succesful this time round.
opening eepei's (second) present.





it's a birthday bear! so happy my fake lash nearly pop out.
on the way for birthday dinner at bungy.it was my birthday and i felt fat and i wore crap. pfft.

it's crap cos i hate how fat my rear look in these jeans.
anyway, this beef is awesome. compliments from the chef.



eepei's third (and real) present.


so many layers jus cos i said i like opening presents lah!
it's a watch! =)

cake time!!!

the pretty cake box from breadtalk.


the usuals with birthday cake...






then the other things you do with birthday cake.





joy's hands on the right coming into the picture (it's so fast it's blurred) to...
cream my face for shaving.


the fake make up. then a second round...


totally vicious.


so much loving. =)





love love! =)



very merciful.

it's been 14 years.


distributing my own birthday cake loh... =/


but the cake made up for it. it's lychee and it's yummeh! thanks eepei!

everything goes well with beer.


he's stoning liao.
and then they made me play card games aka make vera drink non stop time.





thanks for being the best photographer around, the presents, the cake and the time spent. =)
the things i received.


jianwei's flowers in a vase. prettaye!
the rose ginny drove down to pass me one night.

the materials.

i'll update on the other girls' bdays again! gonna sleep.