Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

attract, comfort, seduce - thats all you need to do

i dont think it's really that easy. more than often there are so many situational aspects we have to consider, which then lead you to say or do things which makes you not yourself. in fact, people changed so much from every fucked up experience they encountered that made them not themselves anymore.

you can see it as growing up/learning/changing for the better or whatever have you. or you can see it the same as the 'chicken or egg first' theory. like some people changed and go, 'oh this is the real me!'

as of now, i feel a little too empty in there to want to try anything anymore. i do still have the basic wants, but they have since been turned into higher standard wants.

or maybe the 'getting postive vibes' isnt happening anymore cos i cant fucking make myself trust at all. it's so bloody annoying the shit out of me.

or maybe the occasional hiccups that's been happening once too often makes me go 'what's the fucking point?'

ya, what's the fucking point.

neways, updates of the past few 'eventful' days...

170106 wed mambo night!!!

(will update this another day. too many photos. lazy. heh.)

190106 bungy bar(BB) @ boat quay.

went to BB, which is right beside the bungy thingy, with eepei(corie) and it was...grrreat too. haha! for the free drinks, food and bungy rides, who wouldnt say it's great?? eepei's friend raymond works as a chef there so whenever we're down there, we will get free food and drinks. now everyone say it with me, AWESOME!!! but that day was exceptionally good cos eepei introduced me to BB's boss, paul, who's a angmo, and paul introduced us to his producer friend, lenny, also another angmo.

now, if you remember, i really do not fancy angmo. but i must say my perception of them changed a wee bit better after that night. and it's not cos they kept buying us drinks, so much so that you can get high on baileys alone! (and not to mention, bungy rides!) haha, no, really not cos of the free stuff lah. the usual thing i do when i talk to angmo guys, is be cocky and really show my distaste for them. but there are exceptions like they're friends of friends, so i act a little more civil but, uninterested nonetheless. apparently they took it really well. haha! ok, this is how it went...

part1
lenny, "so how old are you?"
me, "going on 21..."
lenny, "bet you're a daddy's girl then! i'm like 40. old enough to be your dad." me, "yupp My daddy's girl."
lenny, "haha! well. my girlfriend is really young, 21 too..."
me, rolling my eyes, "uh huh. daddy's girl."
paul and lenny guffawed.
paul, "man, (hohoho) she's quick!"

part2
eepei, "she(me)'s really bold and daring. you can dare her to do things."
me, "almost anything."
paul raised his eyebrows.
me, quickly adding, "except if it's gonna disrespect my morals."
paul and lenny guffawed, again.
lenny, "you're really witty! *turning to paul* i like her already."

at this point i was already thinking what idiots they make.

paul, "so what're your morals?"
me, "you go."
lenny, "well, we probably dont have much to say about morals now that we've lived this long and gone through enough. i mean, sure, when i was your age i had morals too..."
me, "which you probably didnt give a shit about either?"
lenny, "see here, dont be too quick about that. that's the problem with singaporeans. they judge too quickly and they dont dare to step out of that comfort zone."
me, "well, how many singaporeans then, have you met to have the right to say that about singaporeans being singaporeans as a whole?"
lenny, "ah... you're young. but you're smart. and you've got so much ahead of you, dont get there so soon."
paul, "yeah. of cos you can still stick with your morals. but you'll outgrow them."

maybe i was really being too quick on judging huh? alright, i'll be a little nicer to angmos now. =)

anyways, photos!
i'm definitely growing back my boobs aye? heh.

and putting back on the hideous tummy too. pfft!! the chef, raymond.sexy back, she says.

eepei's friend rusty dropped by and bought us more drinks...
eepei, "so how big are you really?"

rusty, "heh. like 10inch."
"really got so big meh..."
"omg. you're taking it out?"

"ok ok! i believe you."
eepei, "stop it. i'm not interested."

rusty, "eh, stop filming already. she's not interested."

actually rusty joined us and left just before we got introduced to paul and lenny. and we sat on the bungy rides before we got talking with paul and lenny. paul went up with eepei and i. and i must say, everyone should go try it!! it's really fantastic. thankfully i had enough to drink before being sprung up so i wasnt totally all nerves when i sat on it. we took pictures but they're with raymond, so i'll update those when i get them!

but the rides were really...BAZOOKA!!! i yelled and screamed and yelled and had multiple orgasms. total release from all that stress i was having. =)

240107 canopy and suntec.

i met new friend, kevin for dinner and i brought him to canopy, this nice cafe with fabulous scenery, at the golf course near my rents apartment. then we went on for nydc icecream at suntec which was damn good. and really, i had a lot of fun cos kevin is damn funny and spontaneous. i threw him a couple of stupid dares and he readily did them and laughed bout it and well, it was a good outing. =D

this is what topshop shoes did to me. it's really painful, not just the usual blisters ok! it's like the skin kena sliced out and on both sides of my right foot. and i walked from the river at tg rhu to the golf course for dinner and back there to take bus to suntec, with those cuts. i definitely have a pretty high treshold for pain. =/

Friday, January 26, 2007 at 1:17 AM

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