Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

some nights i sit by myself and snigger at the things i do.

yeah, i guess i've been giving too much thoughts into the momo santarina competition thing. first, it was the girl next door thing which i eventually still back out even after all that deep consideration. haha.

well, not that i've any interest in appearing in fhm again for some girl next door search rubbish. firstly, i didnt even know i was asked to go down to fhm headquarters for a photoshoot for girl next door. nina from momo jsut called and said i was selected for the santarina thing and she's gonna submit my name to fhm so i said ok. of cos the asking me to bring bikini gear thing should have given away, like i was wondering what the heck has santarina gotta do with me in bikini and someone gave a pretty acceptable answer 'sex sells'.
but well, after much contemplation and pestering people with questions of 'should i go x 100', a thought struck me - i should really get my parents a pair of cruise tickets(after seeing my dad so anxious bout getting the cruise tickets from the dbs credit card promo thing, but failed to do so, which i'll elaborate in another entry.) so if i win the 1000bucks, it'll come in handy.
and so, i made my way down with larry. i was asked to a room to sign some contracts stuff which larry wasn't even allowed in. and it was when i step into the room, that i realised i took a 10bucks cab down for a shitass dumb girl-next-door competition.
and the girl beside me started scribbling her particulars on the form and after flipping through the 3pages long terms n condition without even scan reading, she signed her name and made herself available to any kind of shots fhm would like to do to her, if she were to win the measly sum of 1000bucks. plus, attending any social event held by fhm in association to the competition. it's like working as call girls for them free(if you dont win eventually)!
so 1000bucks might sound a lot but please, i wouldnt even show myself in g string to a single stranger for 10,000(ok, maybe a 5secs flash might be ok? haha!). much less said being paid 1000 to show the whole nation including the possibility of your own dad oogling at it then to realise it's you! oh i can practically see my dad's face already. plus the horny smirks you might get from strangers along the streets and even your relatives and fuck, my dad's friends. haha!
i know i'm definitely worth so much more, so i walked out. i'm sure my parents will be happy i made that decision too. =)

and so, a week later, nina from momo called again and said that i'm selected for the santarina competition this time. i almost wanted to ask, what time, you said i was awhile back and it was pretty bullshit. alright, so it's probably miscommunication. anyway, so i said yes, i might be interested.
but ever since then i've been contemplating, yet again, if i should really do it. especially after turning up for the rehearsal just now. you see, we are told to do catwalk, 3secs pose, walk some more, then! bloodypolefuckingdance. when i heard that we have to do the 3secs pose thing, i was laughing bout it with joy. the only thing i can imagine myself posing is doing fugly faces and act dingdong. and then when i heard poledance, i nearly peed. yes, alright, so it's cos the only thing i've in association with poles, is lifting my leg and pee. i dont think i can fucking poledance. honestly, and quite embarrassingly, sometimes when i'm on the dancefloor i even hafta eyes-rove the other girls and steal dance moves! haha!
but well, larry said, just do it for the fun and enjoy it. and i thought, yeah, i've been giving it way too much thought. and at least for this, and at least by far, i dont have to sign any kinda black and white with them which makes me feel safer. and of cos, if i were to win the 1000, it will make the night even more fabulous. =D

haha. alright, for now, i need to sleep badly. i've been a superwoman again, getting my ass up this morning at 9am despite a terrible hangover from last night. night world. =)

Friday, December 22, 2006 at 12:27 AM

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