and i'm supposed to be feeling good bout it. =(looking at those pictures in cassan's blog makes me feel a little shitty. all that fun she's had in aussie. makes me wish to have chosen to study abroad, especially now that i'm single and... ok, ya, single. my life seems to have come to a standstill. i'm not unhappy. but, neither am i like, happy. i think i feel old. everyday after work, i just feel like rushing home and probably watch vcds.
i even have no qualms about leaving mos early.
but i know. i probably dont even have the guts or independency to do it alone. oh, studying abroad i mean. i just know. and then, sometimes i wish i'm born a guy and i've to serve ns. it's tiring and gruelling, yes. but still, look at the fun they are having. and travelling and drinking and just fooling around. yes fooling around.
they are left behind by the girls, having wasted 2yrs serving the nation? i dont think so. guys, they dont come like girls with expiry dates. they Have all the time in the world. seriously. i think the girls who dont go ns suffer more than anything, look at the number of broken relationships. c'mon, dont go tell me about the guys who have their hearts broken when their gfs leave. it's nothing really, compared to the girls who have waited and wasted 2yrs and get dumped eventually.
guys who are not trash, i can count them with my fingers. ok, might borrow my toes just for friendship sake.
sigh. i think you'd rather watch paint dry than read my blog. dont you?
and i think i might just grow old alone.
single. bitter. lonely.
ugly.
graceless.
eating cookies dipped in milk.
probably till tomorrow... mr charming might just walk round the corner. that's if.