laugh imitates reality.a joke and a truth are not mutually exclusive. the best jokes are true, and the best truths are jokes. - lee siegeli still think of tk once in awhile. dont fret, it's nothin along the line of 'i miss him' or 'i think i regret having left him'. i think of stuff from how hurt and sad he must be, to how angry i'm actually with him, to the good and bad things that's happened between us, to how sorry i still feel havin done the things i did, to how sometimes i wonder if i actually hate him.
and i really dont like to be reminded of him. not cos i still cant let go of him so the mere thought of him makes me upset. but i think it's cos i dont feel that there's a proper closure. then again, things are probably meant to be that way. *shrugs*
anyway, what struck me to think about such thoughts is one of tk's girl-friend started talking about him and how sad he's been. i really dont need to hear all these now. i've enough worries and stress from school, in the most selfish words, i dont want to be put through the guilt lane. and i dont think i deserve that. plus did he feel the guilty when it was him then? i dont think so.
the truth is, i do think of how hard i'd like to slap him sometimes. whether it's hurt or anger.