you said you want to take me everywhere you go.it's been a sinful week on my tummy, i've been munching and munching non stop, allowing myself to eat more than i usually do just to satisfy the hunger pangs. and that for pms and the stress schoolwork's been putting me through.
i want to feel alright bout it. that i deserve the short break, put on a little fat and lose it later. but i look at my fugly tummy, i cant. i dont want to be as fat as i was a few months back again. no! so i want fags. fags kill the appetite. and i definitely need it to release the stress in me.
i dont know if it's cos of all these that's been making me think too much. but i think i understand how exactly this feels:
'It may be silly for me to feel this way. To say the things i said. But its what i feel. Like it or not.
I’m sorry if it ticks you off. i’m sorry if you think i’m unreasonable. i’m sorry if you think i’m stupid.
Sometimes i just need you to make me feel like you want me. not me hanging around your neck like your toy monkey. i’m don’t want to feel this way.'there've been lots of questions swirling through my head. and the reason why i'm not sounding them out is that i know how stupid i'll sound when i say them out. argh! i hope very much that it's just me, still unready from the previous scare.
anyway, it's been good getting ahead with my schoolwork. 2 more weeks and whoopeedoodoodoo!!! =)