Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

9heads.
the past few days my appetite was on strike. it's so weird i can get hungry but i have no appetite at all. i would sit thinking and thinking what i should eat during which and which meals but the mere thought of food makes me wanna puke la. and i could just go without food for the whole day without feeling all that hungry like the other times when i do, i simply can just die if i dont eat. my mom says i'm like a man, hungry means anger. haha.

but ya, the sudden lost of appetite is just so weird. my lovely friends even brought me all the way to ikea for my fave meatballs, salmon, chicken wings and cheesecakes and they sure ordered a whole damn lot of 4 eaters: 2salmon plates, 25meatballs, 1chicken pie, 2cheesecakes, 2spaghettis, 6chicken wings. tell me that's a lot lah! alright, so on normal days, i can gobble all up and smile satisfyingly but not that day. i forced myself to chomp down as much as i can so that they wouldnt say i'm a lousy eater and i ended up vomiting all out. i dont like it at all.

oh wells. but at least i'm feeling skinny skinny! hahaha. i hate how my family will really laugh the shit out of themselves whenever i ask if i've slim down. PUI. so much for being the loving family la.

anyway i kinda like it that school's started cos i dont feel that bored shitless half the time. i think that the hols had been a waste cos i didnt get to do most of the things i was planning to due to the FRIENDS having a life of their own. hurmp. but joy's been a real love, almost all of the time i needed to see her, she'll go, 'ok.'

but really, i still hate hate hate sewing class. everything's in such a mess and i'm not catching up, i even find it difficult to put in the effort to! argh. why am i such a bummer. and i hate it that hideki's teaching in the way like we're in that industry for ages like him la. and it's very bad that cos of this i'm seriously contemplating to change to fashion management next year.

ok, i'm not all that reckless and useless la. i have reasons why i think fashion management will do be good too. in fashion design, we get to go through designing phrases, making of the garment, and pattern-making. but really, i can actually send my designs to tailors to help me get my garments done, why go through that trouble of it myself.
and i really dont see myself creating wow designs and have a fashion line of my own in singapore. it all just sounds too... hard? especially in singapore, i think it's just way hard to survive and i hate to say it but i'm not that gutsy to bring my designs offshore either. it's just scary, the way i see it.
so i've been thinking fashion management will be good. i get to learn merchandising stuff and all? i can at least see myself starting a business by buying in clothes from offshore to sell, and i can still fulfil the designing passion by having a small collection of my own(or with combi designers) in the shop. i heard from Room that they actually send their designs to tailors offshore and it's pretty cheap labour and all's been doing pretty well. and if i'm not that into venturing on a real business soon, i can always work for fashion companies as merchandiser,etc, get some contacts here and there and experience, then think about the business thing a few years down the road?
it just seems so much easier and fun that way. i really dont think i have the cut for working as a fashion designer for any brands anyway. it's scary to think of all that competition and the possible critics on my creation.
i know how much gwen and mei will be disappointed with my decision if i were to tell them cos they kept telling me that i have what it takes.

but the truth is, i just dont think i'm all that cool. i really dont think i have what it takes to be different, to be able to create wonders. bah.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006 at 1:05 AM

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