i will never be happy again.sentosa with sarah, singuan, singuan's sister and her husband was pretty good though there isnt one spot i pass by that doesnt remind me of tk. it's been some time, and the reason i kept procrastinating to go that place is cos the last few times i went there, were with tk. so as expected, inside a smiling face and many hearty laughters, was sadness and loneliness.
by pass the waters where i only dare to swim in when tk's around, the luge rides where we had free rides, the toilet that we sneaked into to make out, the beach beds where we tanned and smoked, the bridge where i jumped about as he walks on, the carlsberg tower thing that we promised we'll ride on one day, the cable cars where we rode on when he still had his fuzzy hairdo, the sakae sushi where we had nice filling meals there twice, the place where we first pitched a tent to stay over, the bridge from sentosa to harbourfront where we walked on and really talked and where i got piggy-backed.
sentosa is definitely one place we always, always enjoy ourselves.
sarah and i decided to stay on for a little longer after the rest left at bout 2plus and i do really enjoy her company. somehow we always have got something to talk and ponder and laugh and sigh about, it feels so easy with her as though we've known each other for sometime?
>you know singuan told me something...>>uh, what?>no lah just something bout tk. i dunno whether to say.>>it's alright lah. just say lor...>she said tk's easily attracted to a lot of girls?>>orh.. i know lah. went off to meet joy and all for steamboat cum bbq dinner at marina bay. sigh. the day just
wouldnt get any better. i didnt think that seeing couple friends would bother me so much till today. i kept thinking, if only tk were there too...
sheesh. fuck it. i had a great day, it was fun, i cant be any happier! wee!
something i had always not want to say out but been hoping you'll see it soon.seems very unlikely you ever will so here. if i could forgive and forget you then for having led me on and off for 3years, while you fall in and out of love with some other girls. and when we finally got together you said part of the reason you couldnt decide to step into a relationship with me, is cos your friends didnt like me. if i could forgive and forget all those hurt you made me go through for 3years of my life, why cant you?
why cant you!
WHY CANT YOU??
goodbye to the 6 years i've wasted. there'll be no more counting down.