somewhere in the middle of the night i awoke with a jolt.
and deep within, i felt this sudden pang of sadness.
unrecognizable sadness.
is it because cassan is flying off in about 3 hours' time?
or is it because of what happened between shawn and i that's finally setting a mark?
i'm thinking it's the latter.
though i really dont want to admit this for fear of recognising something even deeper.
but yes, it must be the latter.
as of right now, i'm missing him already...