last night was a blast.
2 factors:
1. sandra's got the most happening parents and home part i know.
2. shawn.
sandra,
i kinda feel that i understand what you're going through. what with finally being able to stop hanging on to a 'thorny' relationship, and yet, not being able to let go. trust me, last night isnt the worst night, in the next few weeks or so, you'll have more to come. i had my nights of 'feel like shit cos i cant forget', for months and months. so if yours come, you know who you can turn to. though i might not be the first person you might feel comfortable crying to. =)
and i guess without my saying this, you'd already know it's all for the better. as friends, we can be there for you by listening out, offering a shoulder or a hug, or just by hanging around with you. but the only person who can truly make yourself survive this, is yourself.
perhaps by starting to embrace and enjoy singlehood, stop reminiscing the past and have fun knowing and playing along with the options that are laid before you, may sound a tad hard-hearted. but if it's gonna make you happier and let you step out of this shitty aftermath of a breakup, you know your friends will be more than happy to cheer you on! =)
so be strong and love yourself like no one else will. it's only then, that the love you've always waited for, seeks you. so that even if it takes a long while, it's all worth it.
meanwhile, friends like me, will love you, always.
and about shawn, i was just very happy he agreed to go to sandra's birthday on the mere idea of gambling the night away.
but his actions to me and to my friends last night when he was there, really really made my day. =) so so happy that i didnt wana believe it really happened. am afraid to believe, i would say. at some point nearing the dawning of the day, i hoped real hard(as i sat gambling away) that time will stop. i didnt want to see the start of another day. i didnt want this night to end. i was so afraid that when morning comes, everything will be back to normal again. for i dont know, i really dont know what exactly was going on between us.
well, i still dont know, now. but at least i'm glad i dont see it fading away. he's even promised to make time for me despite his busy school schedule.
i guess in a way, whatever happens from here, i'm just gonna be happy that there's ever this night. that at least, it did happen. no matter how short-lived. =)
anyw, on sandra's parents, they're way cool beyond words man. damn happening bunch. never seen a mom getting the daughter to down 3full cups of beer on her birthday, claiming that it's house rule. now i do really believe sandra does go drinking with her mom and her mom's friends. lols.