very very funny. what's with apple and me, wan?
Thursday, October 27, 2005 at 1:37 AM
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Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:still at ur game?
emotions of a living robot. says:yeap.
emotions of a living robot. says:how bout you?
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:jus went to lao sai for the 6th time
<10mins>
emotions of a living robot. says:haha. what happened?
emotions of a living robot. says:thought you're not feeling well?
<-- if i'm feeling well, i wouldnt be crapping for the sixth time, will i??? Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:yeah.
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:what rubbish qns
emotions of a living robot. says:or was it your bladder not feeling well?
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:i dunno
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:more like stomach
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:bladder stores urine
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:i diarheorred
<15mins>
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:aiya, forget it man.
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:i'm goin off bye,
<5mins>
emotions of a living robot. says:hey.
emotions of a living robot. says:done with the game.
emotions of a living robot. says:you take poh chai already?
emotions of a living robot. says:dear???
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:please. ur dear is ur game
emotions of a living robot. says:no lah.
emotions of a living robot. says:you shld know its you what.
emotions of a living robot. says:the game is just non-existing.
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:will u jus scroll up n see the shit u wrote b4 sayin nething?
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:i'm really going off my limbs r like jello
Everything in life that we really accept undergoes a change. says:bye
when u hafta sneeze at the rate of 100times per sec and go let your ass puke water every half hour, you're not in the best of your mood, trust me. and if your bf happened to be in a 'couldnt care less' mood, 'all that matters is my (bloody) game' then you're even madder.and so he msged: let me get this straight, my love for you has never changed.
since when did i say you changed? but look at your actions before you apply conceit speech. bladder = pee. please. i know it's your half-hearted reply. i'm not putting all these here just so people can judge and say you're bad. or perhaps, i'm petty too. but how else to make you see my point, i dunno.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 at 8:29 AM
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just put up my new tagboard(click the lowest star and it'll appear).. the old one's gone.. =(
please please tag me and make me merry!
Monday, October 24, 2005 at 10:52 PM
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Fallen to pieces - Avril Lavigne
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
Sunday, October 23, 2005 at 10:45 PM
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some random pictures i havent been updating.
at tang's booza night.

mr pinkie riding hood.

of all gayness.

choco monster's cheesy smile.
Mac and cineleisure madness
boat ride 1.

boat ride 2. not much luck there huh, justin? hehs.

my wonderful creation. after french flies.

i swear justin was trying to cum at wan.
classroom boredness
sandra!!!

thinking of pornsites superstars.

looking at pornsites superstars.

hmm..?
last but not least...
*wheet wheet, slurp slurp, meow meow, MUAH!*
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ha, i just ate a bowl of noodles while watching Jack trying to save Boon. after finishing the noodles then i realised, my, i just watched a man dying with blood all over, disgusting and everything and i can still eat. and i CANT believe they let Boon die in Lost. must be because he's so hot and all, they have to pay him extra in the show. so they hafta let him off the production earlier, by making him die. bloody hell.
anyway, it's 8am now, and sleep still doesnt come. oh man oh man..
Saturday, October 22, 2005 at 8:06 AM
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all that talk about going/wanting to sleep through all weekend and, secretly hoping, all through the hols. just the first night and i've be tossing and turning. woke up at round 4am to pee and cant get back to sleep. urgh! so here i'm now blogging shit.
how to last through the whole of 2months???? how i wish i'm like.. 1)viola, she's got somewhere to return to. 2)eliza, everyday bloody power packed with events. 3)wan, he can jolly well stay home and 'nua' like nobody's business. <'nua'=slack around like a worm>
and everyone's saying, 'go get a job lah!' aiya, damn lazy can? firstly, nice and acceptable job doesnt jump off the shelf. i hate the searching for one part. next, new temporary faces, oh i so hate making new acquintances. thus, the loner by choice, so freaking irritating.
and.. i dont need a job!! i have enough shoes to paint!
okok, can someone please pretty pretty please offer to get the same job with me???
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threw my temper at wan last night...
i was pissed with his stubborness(is there such a word?). he's got 3 acts in his media art assignment and he took like 4days to complete the first act. so i was trying to talk him into shortening his assignment by cutting short act2 and 3. and he's not willing to.
so out of frustration, i ignored him, went offline and headed for bed.
and he started sms-ing me:
him: meow...
me: go do meet your doom lah.
him: haha. i know you're concern bout my work and all. but please at least if i'm still stubborn then do show me some encouragement or support. :)
me(after much thought. i was contemplating whether to go soft or hard on him. and i decided, might as well give him some pressure so he'll really work on it.): prove me wrong then.
him: i'm on fire. and i now think i'm ready to bust a move. checking out and rocking-steady to the beat in my head it goes oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.
me: wth. concentrate on your work can?
him: hahahaha. i'm spinning ard. move out of my way. i know you're feeling me cos you like it like this. lalalalalalala. (reply to wab?)
me: aiya, whatever lah. i'm going to sleep. go do your work! goodnight.
him: YES MAAM! THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE FIRL WHOM I LOVE AND THATS YOU MAAM. SO YES MAAM! I GO DO WORK MAAM! NOW GIVE ME A KISS MAAM!
just one of the reasons i love him.
Thursday, October 20, 2005 at 12:19 PM
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surprisingly, critical studies paper wasnt that difficult today. only studied from 6am this morning, too lazy to study man. hate studying.
well anyway, thankfully wan and i discussed on a couple of the topics that came out for the paper, just right before it. so i'm keeping my fingers crossed till results are back. i've got to score for this to make up for the bloody presentation.
which reminds...
sonafabitch, bloody hell, chao cheebye, fuck fuck fuck (ok, my vulgarity vocab will never beat weiye)
and that for the presentation.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005 at 11:12 PM
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booze at tang's.
morning was spent rushing shoes orders, then it's far east plaza and far east square to settle the whatever. then rushed down to harbour front to meet the peeps. ok, so it's only zoe, eepei and winston. bah!
ok, here's irritating issue no.1
of all days, wan has to be late today and to have no credits in his simcard nor money to get into sentosa. man. and we hafta do our telepathy thing. it goes like that :
sms to wan-how long before u reach harbour? gimme a miss call for each 5mins.
ring.
ring.
ring.
ring.
again??ring.
WHAT THE...ring.
FUCK.ring.
ring.
ring.
BLOODY HELL. 45mins!
so we went ahead and met up with sandra at siloso beach and tanned a little bit, while zoe sits at the beach like a niang niang whatever.
irritating issue no.2
wan finally miss call me to announce his arrival at harbour front.
"woohoo"
now i hafta go back to sentosa arrival point,
dripping wet and in my biks bottom,
to get him in.
got wan into sentosa then got everyone to shift to palawan beach. sorry guys, for the convenience of everyone, i inconvenient sandra, winstons, zoe and her friend. heh. well, i just dont like siloso beach nemore. used to go there so much i'm sick of it. ok, plus palawan has got a 7-11, we dont need a pub, we need a convenient store! =)
irritating issue no.3
wan
didnt bring extra pants to change
so he wasn't planning to get a lil wet with me,
as promised.
crap.
well at least i've got sandra and eepei, so we were having a little fun waddling in the water. especially me, i was doing some good, giving sandra some mud hair mask. *sniggers* then... sandra and i learnt something..ugly? haha. the conversation went like that:
sandra: yeah siloso beach always have some party.. think fhm was there once...
me: oh, do u know i was in fhm? haha.
eepei: yaya, i know.
sandra: ...and my friend was selected and she appeared i fhm's cover...
(she can be totally oblivious of what others are saying, at times. haha.)
me: oh, is it girl next door? it was the one i was caught in.
sandra: ...and my friend has got really big boobs...
eepei: how did they approach you?
me: oh some friend of mine, dragged me and some friends to siloso that day. we didnt know why she so badly wanted to go that day but we all had nothing to do so we went. and she turned out in some frilly skirt with make up and blowned hair. i was like, wth, fashion show? but we didnt care much, we just went to swim and all that. we didnt understand why she was swimming though!
eepei: then?
sandra: (saying smth i cant remember what. but she msut be saying something cos i didnt remember her not talking. hahaha.)
me: then the crew came in and she was like, 'ooh, i've been waiting for this!' and sabo the rest of us in. so while she's all made up, ready for taking photo while the rest of us looked like fucktards that just grown form the sand.
sandra: oh i think my friend is in the girl next door.
me: oh, is she pretty?
sandra: ok lah, got very big boobs lor. D cup i think.
BELLS START TO RING.
sandra went on: she's now in tp...
VOLA.
me: is her name er. er....
sandra: sheryl lor.
me: yayayaya. damn fucking bimbotic one right???
sandra: oh ya, very..
and blah blah blah.
so the girl i was talking about, sabotaging us into the shoot is the very same girl sandra was talking about.
what a small world.
for those big boobs.
so anyway, after the wonderful found, we decided it's time to go find tang's artist village warehouse. bathed in the fucking small container make-shift toilet and again, added new members to my 'seen me naked list'. the last member who joined was rachelle when we bathed together at leo's after swimming. this time round it's sandra and eepei. my blubber probably took their appetite away. haha.
oh before i forget, while we were walking towards the toilet, justin came walking towards us. and i, probably high on seawater, started shouting, 'hey you kong! ah kong, king kong, stupid kong, bloody kong, fat kong, goth kong, black kong. proudly presenting...JUSTIN KONG KONG KONG."
to think back now, i must have made a fool of myself.
went back to find wan after bathing. poor thing, he had to fast and he's like dehydrating under the sun and all. so i think he deserves... *take out wand and ting away irritating issues. hehs.
*muah muah.*
so then the whole group of us headed to tang's party. and it turned out to look more like 1P gathering, at least not till much later. so we had fun drinking and 'gossiping'-as put tang. eliza got pretty crazy again and bit sandra. haha, we should all remember, eliza and booze...ta-mix. hehe.
it's not till 10plus when people starts leaving. really sorry sandra, pang se the taxi ride... went to watch skeleton key with pav and justin. =( wan couldnt go cos he's got to go home, means no one for me to grab in the horror flick. and the whole while my arms kept flinging apart when i got shocked.
justin's and pav's review of the movie: vera'a flying arms are even more horrifying than the show itself.
Sunday, October 16, 2005 at 8:15 AM
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when i first heard the sound, i thought:
what
what is that sound?
i've heard that sound.
i think i know what sound that is.
it's one of those sounds that everyone hopes:
noone will know what it is.
oh.
that sound (the sound you hope noone knows) is the sound of a vibrator.
oh,
and that's what sound this sounding is.
it's a vibrator.
in fact, it's vibrations being made.
but who's around to be embaressed?
and this sound doesn't seem embaressing(?).OH.
shit!
it's my phone
vibrating.
and i missed it.
Saturday, October 15, 2005 at 12:54 AM
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i'm gonna flunk my product design, and so said chris.
well, pretty expected that and didnt see myself deserving anything more than that.
after all, my 4 days before assessment day was spent all on fashion design.
it's not that i'm displaying a show of my no-care attitude or thinking i'm so good i dont need to do my work.
just that.
between work and school. i have to choose work cos i wouldnt have been even be in school had it not been the fact that i need the extra help through school for my work.
chicken and egg situation? to hell with it.
between product design and fashion design. of course, i'll hafta choose fashion cos it's what i need to go into.
i wish i have more say in the speed time is running and the energy that's sipping away from my body.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005 at 11:39 PM
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hip hip hooray for hte big head is coming back tonight! =)
Sunday, October 09, 2005 at 12:07 AM
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did my fashion shit the whole of last night till 7am this morning. barely 4 hours since i went to sleep, my phone alarm rings. the rainy weather makes me feel like snuggling in for more sleep but work wouldnt permit that. 2 more hours of sleep and i'd probably not be able to hand in the crap on monday. argh. someone please stop the time from moving and let me sleep, just a little more.
Saturday, October 08, 2005 at 11:34 AM
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should i do this, or this. does he think this is funny am i too pushy, am i distant. does he want to see me, does he hate me. here i'll wait by the phone he sleeps his day away.. no i don't want this ignorance from you, i will make it sound. yes of course you look wonderful. and no no no whatever you do do not leave.these crumpled pieces of paper, and the room that's still strewn with piles of junks. this neck that's still got your scent.
this relationship that makes me so at lost.
no, this me that makes people run. this me that loses everything in relationships. this me that didnt want a relationship.
this me that's caught in one.
this me that has stop being me.
relationship is scary.
it takes away all ability to not love, to stop loving, to walk away, to stand on my own, to stop wondering silly thoughts.
it gives me the power to drive love away.
and the independency that flies out of the window.
what the fuck am i so paranoid of?
Tuesday, October 04, 2005 at 1:19 AM
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i've been procrastinating my shit for too long. down right slacker.
things to do:
- shoes orders
- accessories orders
- tang's hmwk - 3 jewellery mock up, fashion garment board, mood board, and dunno what else.
- chris's hmwk - building the stupid umbrella mock up and some technical drawing.
- read up on hazel's notes. test's next tues. =(
- kim's hmwk - i dunno what exactly we hafta show him this week.
- urich's hmwk - long overdued pastel drawing, stupid charcoal drawing.
- matt's hmwk - the storyboard(first).
i kinda miss tk not being in singapore. =(
Monday, October 03, 2005 at 10:56 PM
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tell me you're sorry
and i might just forgive you.
tell me you lied
but i cant promise i'll forget.
tell me it's the truth
and i'll take your word for it.
but tell me nothing
i realy dont know what to do.
should i leave... or should i stay?
all i need in this life of sin is myself and the stud.all i need in this life of sin is myself.
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cant really believe that i'd tear, just by watching 'the sisterhood of the traveling pants'.
alright, so that was crying.
and pretty hard.
it's almost like crying all the tears i've been keeping in me all these while.
yeah, it has to be.
truth is, i've been running away from a lot of things.
a big part lies in my family.
as quoted from nessa:
"i can't stand being in this family anymore. had enough of these verbal abuse. it's like coming home to hell. so many nights wasted crying my eyes out where they should be spent studying. i need to get out of here."
doesnt that sounds familiar?
my parents are very good at the verbal
stuff.the many nights i get home to these but i'd try to block everything out and pretend that everything is fine.
like how we also play pretend when we're young.
i thought i'd handle it well.. by
not sweating over the small things.i thought by sleeping them all away, everything'll be fine.
i mean, it would be, wouldnt it?
we sleep, we wake up. it's a bright new day to begin with.
blah blah blah.
no, really.
i cant sleep well. all these while.
there isnt a night where i would just fall into a deep sleep and wake up only the next morning.
in fact, the mornings wake up to feels as though i hadnt even sleep.
i'm physically and mentally strained.
like how many times have i been saying this?
maybe i needed to cry, that's all?
all that crying over a
silly show makes me feel, kinda better?
(i dunno why i'm saying it's a silly show even when i do like it.)
doesn't it?
or maybe it's just pms?
making me all emotional, weepy and all?
ha.
i feel so alone.
and oh yeah.
it's not really that i hate being left alone at home.
really.
i just dont know how to call this a home.
i feel so alone even with all the people in it.
i felt even lonelier without.
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woke up with a bad mood and a tantrum of a 3year old.
i really, really hate being left alone at home, especially on a sunday, and, without notification!
but i know, that doesnt account for my hanging up on my aunt and hurling mad sms at wan.
i'm sorry.
but i'm still not happy. =(
Sunday, October 02, 2005 at 8:23 PM
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