in about 9hours time, i'll be in Hong Kong. this is so exciting, it's as though it's my first time travelling! crazed. actually, not really.. i'm kinda feeling a little paranoid about this trip. yes, cos remember that dream about myself puking blood?? yes.. and my aunt says that dreaming bout blood is bad omen..
oh man.. i really wish nothing bad will happen to me, and i especially dont wana die.. i dont want be the first to go and leave tk so alone here...
haha. maybe i'm thinking too much. i'm a paranoic silly girl!
but anyway, since i'm on this, i might as well go on about how much i cant bare to leave -you-
i've never felt so right bout anyone in my life. and i really wish to spend the rest of my life with you. amid all your insecurities of my love for you, i feel a mixture of feelings. some of which makes me smile and think, "this silly boy, if only he knew... how much i love you.", some of which makes me frown a little, exasperation with regrets..
but of cos, i do understand you need the time to re-adjust stuff. to trust me all over again. i dont blame you.
then again, childish it may be, i do wish trust comes as easy as it sounds. for now, and from now onwards, you can be sure my heart wont ever stray again.
cos i just love you so so much....
just the other day, bird was asking, "just how much do you love him? are you willing to die for him?" i guess the latter question is a bit off.
but i'm thinking now... yes, i'm willing to die for him-should there be the need for, of course. i'm no longer, or should i say i am NOT, the kinda girl who'll threaten to kill myself(when dumped) for anyone no matter how much i love him. it's just plain silly and idiotic.
anyway, as i was saying, i'd die for him... in cases where.. maybe he need a certain part of my organ?? ya, you get it, something like pierre png story. hehs.
however, as generous as it may sound that i wouldnt mind giving up my life for him, i think i might still hold back a little. and it's only cos i'm afraid he might be lonely without me. (ok, perhaps you cant help thinking, will he really?) yes, i really think he will.
and yes, it took me so long to realise how much he actually does loves me.
i'm looking forward to a wondeful valentines with you. =)