Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

thought the end of exams signifies bliss.
my, was i wrong.
a shortlived bliss with the girls.
then home is where reality hits.

first the angry quarrel with my brother over the silliest issue of hp bill. wth, like i'll pay his 2 months bill when i've only used half a month. he jus wont think straight and reason when he's angry. then dad, always the heartache in my family-life, has to side my bro without knowing what's wrong. and yes, thanks to -whoever- destined me to be born before my bro, and all that traditional chinese crap my dad upholds except the most beautiful story of 'kong long lang li'. it just never happen.
then up to my room where the second issue came up.

you.
there was a time i truly cared for and loved.
till now the single resolution-void.
you.
Big Fish just reminds me of our friendship.
i never know the truth.
left hanging on your tales.
all those weird stories you tell,
over and over and over and over and over again.
i dont know what to trust,
from you.
feel like i dont even know the real you.
the one you put before me,
with the eyes fluttering in all directions,
except to look straight in mine, with sincerity and honesty.
you.
the one i have problems trusting.
and you.
the one who hasn't made any efforts in the friendship anyway.
i gave, i cared, i lent and i shed.
i listened, i sheltered, i nursed and i comforted.
i ached, i worried, i angered and yes, i bitched.
the mental aches you give me are just too much,
to be stored.
i need to vent.
but no, i never meant them to be mean.

i credit my agony to my ability to stand my ground not in fear of causing commotion and aggravation. someone tell me, is that wrong?

©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
hey! i told u to return like last week okay
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
not like i didnt ask you so many times
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
and if u borrow it from me, then be prepared to RETURN
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
cos it's only right
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
seriously.. get over yourself..
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
i CAN"T the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
you're bag
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
your bag's in a non returnable stage..
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
you'd ask me to pay fer it if you got it back anyway... the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
sheesh...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
don't tell me what's right..
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
i'm in pasir ris...
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
oh yeah, so i suppose 'taking gd care' of ppl's property by draggin ard the sch is right yea?
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
i stay over my aunts place for a reason...
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
and spoilin it to non returnable stage is right
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
u know, u and ur life.
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
i dont want to have anything to do with it or to know anymore
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
no wonder choon lim has the same sentiments as me
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
stop being a bitch and get over it... i did that for such a long time already.. took you a while to catch on...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
go on bitch.. bad mouth about me... what ever...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
i seriously couldn't care less...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
i got over you a long time ago...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
the whole project thing was the last straw...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
honestly.. i ain't taking crap from you no more...
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:bitches like you made me cry too many times..
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:hello? which proj r u talkin bout?
the life of a true CoOkieStaRaiN - piss off.. i'm not traveling half the country just to get yer bag! says:
so piss off
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
and yes, i'm a bitch. but u spark that in me.
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
there was a time i truly carer n loved you
©º°¨¨°º© wenn ©º°¨¨°º© drowned. i'd rather die my way. says:
but no more

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okay. so final straw you have yeah? same here and eat your own stink up straw or maybe shove it up your smelly ass. *eww*
for one, i dont know exactly which project you're talking about here. if you're talking about the CS project, i dont know how you can feel that 'last straw thing' when you won in getting nurul, lin and me out of the group by your little, pitiful tears. i wonder why i had even put myself through that, it all just sums up to you.
and if you're talking about the IT project. shouldnt i be given this amount of time to get over that anger i feel towards you cos of all that issues for CS. afterall, i did get into that trouble to see if we can make a group of 7 when i saw that nurul, lin and you haven't have a steady group. but then to have you try to get nurul and lin out of the whole thing when it was deemed impossible by sukarna and then, finally myself too. i was angry and thus suggested to lin and nurul if i could work on IT with them too. then all of a sudden nurul and lin just backed out on me too and i can almost see you're the one standing with the victory smug on your face. just where on earth did you get the 'final straw thing' from?

and yes, i'd very much like to piss off. or should i say, i'd very much want you to piss out of my life. but please, return whatever you owe me first. dont think you can just get away from owing people things by asking ppl to 'piss off' yeah. it was since last, last saturday(9th oct) that i told you clearly i needed my bag and that you've to return it on monday(11th oct). my, you didnt even make any attempt to explain to me that the bag is in whatever state it's then. and you can come on monday, empty-handed and tell me, 'what? i didnt get your msg.'
oh wells. nvm, i thought, cos you promised to contact me later on how to pass me the next day so that i can use it on wed(13th oct). but ya, so so responsible you never remember things i guess. and i have to call you on tues but yes, you claimed you're all the way at pasir ris? hey, but you know, check your own blog and you'll know how silly you sound. i didnt know NP is all the way at pasir ris. but wow, now i know.
okay, rewind. still, initially i didnt know bout you being in school yet. so when you said, 'i let you know tonight k. maybe if i going back tpy then we meet and i pass you.' (haha, like you've any intention of doin so!) well, neways, i was like okay, and waited.
12plus am was when i msged you, "dont you think you should have at least leme know you cant meet up. i waited all day for you to cfm."
hmm, but ya, as expected, you didnt rely. okay, friday then.
needless to say, friday came, then sat, then mon. not one day passed without me reminding you that you've to return my stuff. but did you for once mention the fact that it's in a non-returnable state?! you simply have no intentions of returning people's things, have you?!
i wonder how someone can be so thick-skinned. my, must be inborn i guess.

you thought i was mean? no, i only started being mean to you, today.

after all that resolutions of eliminating you out of my life once and for all, last week, i never thought you can ever hurt and make me cry again. guess i was wrong. your words set the reality of the 'friendship' we had and prove all my instincts right. what a disgrace, and all that love i had for you.

you.
i'm not taking this shit no more.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 1:09 AM

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