Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

am supposed to be sleeping, was really tired.
now i cant even shut an eye.
my eyes sting of constant rubbing off tears.

he goes:
so cya tmr at 7.30 ok.. love you lots. goodnight..

and she goes:
can u say things like this(sweet nothings) more often? i'm getting so used to u not sayin them tt i feel weird, not happy cos it's rare like u thought it'd be. i feel that sayin these stuff makes us feel more affectionate towards one another. you're really not makin it precious by not sayin it more often. you're jus mmakin me feel lonesome.

and he goes:
i try ok? but it's just me that i'm not used to showin it too often la. but pls know that i always love ya as much.

and she goes:
i fee very trapped in this. i've not been able to single it out but now i've found the words to. i feel so much closer to alot of my frens than with u cos they make me feel warm by showin affections to me.

and he goes:
i dont know how should i react to this. why ya always think that i'm not giving enough in whatever i do? i'm so serious and doing all that i'm possible. but it's like nothing to u. ya said that im takin w/o giving. i feel so heartbroken by all this criticism. i'm tryin all my best but why ya dont seem-

and she cuts:
mayb it's jus that i'm like that, difficult to please.. need u to try harder to make me feel more secure.. but i feel mayb, it's better that u put in a little more effort? better than me feel so upset all the time yea?

and he goes:
to be satisfy with it abit? i really love u so much and really doin my best. i admit that i'm not the best but i'm the already doing it with all that i'm able to

and she goes:
fine fine. if u feel so then let it be. i've nothin more to say.

and he goes:
no la i can do this more often, but all that i hope is ya can showsome encouragement instead of saying that i'm not loving you all the time.

and she goes again:
i didnt say all that to spark another bout of reasonings from u. am really tired of it. n mayb the only reason i'm always sayin these is bcos u've nv changed when u promised. n which line in my msges even mean anything like: u'r not putting enough effort or u dont love me. all i'm saying is that i need u to do a single certain thing i little more so i dont feel so upset bout this matter all the time.

and he goes:
no. i'm not saying tonight. last week and anytime ya dont feel right, ya jus msg me all these. and if my msg are only reasoning to you. how bout time whne ya send me dozens of msg to jus show an issue. i'm not sayin ya wrong everytime. but ya constantly doin it to me. when i mean it's just my defect that i cant do smth, ya can never accept it. but when other say sth about u, u hope tt they can accpet that's u.do ya realise that ya doin things to others that ya dont like others to treat ya this way? many times ya didnt say certain things directly, but it's the impac on me that affects me tha most.and ya dont think i'm changing, while i'm trying to avoid so many things over this period of time. i never think tt i'm always right. i admitted them and i'm tryin ti change.

and she goes:
stop stop. u do whatever u like or u want. u think it's enough then let it be. i wont ask anything from u again. if u feel tt i've not been showin u encouragemnet, then maybe 'd try to check ur frienster acct more often. i did more than 8 testimonials for u.

and she thinks:
and u promised to write one for me like weeks ago. so where's it? (it's not such a big deal to ppl who's jus readin but between him n me, it means alot more.) and all those u promised u'll change.

dont judge.

Sunday, September 26, 2004 at 11:45 PM

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