Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

this must be the lousiest day ever in this lousy month of august.
morning started out with parents not being able to fetch me to school, but ok, it's not all that bad cos i'm not that pampered anyway and i got to get to school with tk.
then..was a little late for school but lecture started, just when i walked into the lecture theatre, with agnes scolding us because of the complains she got from our field practical. and i got to know that one of the complains was made about D, who was absent again.
well, nvm, i told myself not to cross the boundary again and let it pass. until the problem of the grouping of the music test for curriculum studies came up.

i suppose the confusion of the grouping started out like this:
yy the blur queen submitted the list of names of the group members in her group, including our names(D and i) in the list as she didnt know that nurul n lin had already formed group with some 1b02 people, plus, not knowing that 1b02 fellas also submitted a list as well. so the 2 lists was like this:
yy's submission - yw(me), D, nurul, lin, yy, natasha
1b02 fella's submission - nurul, lin, yy, natasha n another 2
so naturally a repetition of names, and D n i didnt even know what was going on. the 1b02 people went to belinda and got nurul, lin, yy n natasha's out of our group today, and thus left D n me alone-groupless.
cant blame them of cos, they had their group made up way before everything else, naturally they want to be in the same group after all. as much as i was confused how D n i ended up in their group, i jus took for granted that i do have a group cos we told jenn to jus put us in any group-well, until today.
so anyway, belinda asked that D n i jus get into any other group that has only got 6members. that was really difficult cos the B classes have a total of 43students, and to divide us into groups of 6s and 7s, is really difficult. we hafta have 5 groups of 6 and a group of 7 to achieve that. and at that point of time, there were only 3 groups with 6members and 4 students who still do not have a group. i got into a group easily cos i joined the group that asked me to join them at in the very beginning. then i was worried that a certain someone, who was absent today, will be devastated to find out when she comes back to school the next day that she's the only one without a group and the test is on wed(mind you). so i went to the other 2 groups who has got 6 members and asked if they mind D joining. both groups later told me that they want the other 2 girls to join them instead. so D really doesnt have a group then.
then, we had 6groups of 7 and a student with no group. i got really worked up, especially with belinda cos i thought she was being really difficult about the grouping, couldnt understand why she had to place to much emphasis on the number of members in the group and not just the ned product. and a couple of times, i sensed that belinda was running away from problems. i mean, she's a lecturer right? how can she be doing that? who do we go to then??
i got to a point where i was so frustrated i broke into angry tears. shredding tears for a problem that should even be of my concern. dumb and silly.
can you see the problem?? initially when i approached belinda with the problem, she just wanted us to, by any means, form 5 groups of 6 and a group of 7. meaning to say, the then-current groups hafta break up again just to form another group just for D. this isnt any of D's fault, it could have been anyone else, but who would ever want to get out of their comfort zone for another one person?? and asyura was all for asking lin, nurul and yy to breakout of their group from the 1b02 ppl cos she thinks if we stay within our own class, then all problems will be solved for us. but i really was against it cos by forcing the 3 out of their group, they'll feel that it's unfair and everything and there'll be consentment in our class.
approached belinda again and this told her straight in the face how i felt towards the how situation. negotiated with the help of everyone else and in the end let her agree to allow us to have a group of 8members, with D in our group.
though the issue seems to be over, i started wondering how can D just decide not to come to school at all?? doesnt she know that our group-take it for the former one, still hasnt come up with anything for the upcoming test on wed. isnt she concerned at all??
smsed her to ask her why she wasnt here, like honestly cos i really couldnt bring myself to believe in her mc excuses anymore. (i'm sorry if she was truly ill.) but she didnt reply me. frankly, i will feel alot better if she'll just reply me and tell me the truth, even if she's truly ill. at least i see that all the effort was worth it. but she didnt. i really dont know what to make out of it.
okay, that's for that. and anyone would think that after going through all that for a friend/classmate, you will be more blessed or something like that. (haha..) well, guess what, i lost my wallet in the bus! and it contains the whole of my next month's allowance, new bus concession and tk's ezlink as well. oh, and yes, my makeover passport pics. lol.. and i realised i lost my wallet just right after the bus drove away. chased after the bus for like 3 stops till i just collapsed and cried, cos each time i almost reach the bus stop, the fucking bus has to drive away. and mind you, i havent run like that for ages! my legs still feel rather jellied now..

i seriously think someone had me cursed or something. totally shitified, hope i can just drop dead.

Monday, August 30, 2004 at 8:55 PM

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