Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

darling diana, i hope this helps..
i once went through a break off with this guy whom i-thought-i really loved too. when he broke off with me, i wasnt even able to think of what a complete jerk he was. i kept thinking about all the great times we had and how sudden the break off was and i do not understand why he had to do that to me-i still dont exactly understand. for months i cried to sleep whenever i think of him on lonely nights, good friends have seen me start tearing in the mid of laughters. (you're really not alone.) coincidentally, i couldn't forget his smell either which is ironically, only the smell of his stupid hairgel. i vaguely remember the times when i smelt that familiar smell of his again n thought that he's coming back but each time turned out that it was merely some old man or guy using the same hairgel that passed by. i wanted to get out of that crap, who wouldn't want to?
but i found myself sinking deeper and deeper each time. everyone had different advices for me. "time heals all wounds" was the only one which stuck by me. not that i agree with that line but cos i completely disagree. time does not and can never ever heal all wounds. time only make the feeling of lost become a misty part of ourselves, we may be able to tuck it away somewhere but it never fails to destroy our day by popping out for a visit. it only becomes less prominent in our lives.
what i believe in is that love heals all wounds. i found new love and i realised i couldnt be happier now that i'm with tk. and at some point i couldnt help laughing at myself for thinking that that guy is my true love. i also learn that to truly love someone, you do not only remember how he smells. you also remember how he feels, tastes, smiles, eats, sleeps, cries, giggers(yes tk giggers), fart, gets pissed and much much more. i'm not encouraging that you go about seeking new love cos it's not gonna really help lest it comes naturally.
di, you spent 2yrs with shannon and now he couldnt even tell you right out that he wants to break off.. an end is just an end. and a jerk of a boyfriend is what you have got(i mean look at how he had always been treating you?) and am i glad you are at least able to tell yourself that he's a jerk. jerk are not for keeps my dear.. i know how difficult it's for you and that it's going to take time, but when you do get yourself out of this, you'll see that it just takes(put your thumb and your index finger to about an inch apart) that much of an effort to step put of it. you've friends who will be there for you..

like me... =)

p.s. i'm blogging all these here cos it's also something which i went through that i didnt get about putting it down. never felt the need/urge to til now i guess.. this whole chunk is for me as much as for anyone who is still lost in love.

Friday, July 23, 2004 at 6:19 PM

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