Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

went sentosa yesterday, had loads of fun and now i'm really charchoal.. yeah. all that resolution to stop going under the sun so much had gone down the drain, but i loved it. sigh, hope that i really wont head down to wrinklesville so soon man! oh and there's frecklesville and hydratedville. lols, so bimboic!

well, isn't it contradicting how we sometimes wish we are older, that we can grow old sooner, but when we really are, we wana stop the clock from ticking away. ok, so i do not really wana grow old. i mean, practically everyone at work thought i was at least 20 years old, goodness me. and they say it's not because of my looks, more of how i'm carrying myself and how i talk. (am i really that 'lao qi?!) anyway, before i carry myself away.. i was saying, i dont wana grow old but there's this part of me that wish that time can go faster than it's. it's weird, but it's something that practically everyone went through.

when i was young, i would dream of being a working adult, able to afford anything in the world. and the one thing i'll splurge my money on is loads and loads of barbie dolls and playdoh.
then somehow barbies and playdoh got boring, and i would sit in front of the mirror, willing myself to grow older. i remember doing silly stuff like pushing my non-existent breast upwards, trying to trim my eyebrows like my mom did and ended up with 2 big holes on my eyebrows and turning up for a passport photo-shoot with that beautiful set of eyebrows.
teenage marked the period of all that sudden consciousness of what was happening to my body. i no longer have those fantasies of having boobies, so as to be able to fit in my mom's ulgy dresses. i hated that change i saw, and luckily i have not sprouted an disgusting pubic hair-till now. =D yeah, but i was damned embarrassed by my growing tits and eventually my monthly menses, especially so cos i always stained my uniform in school! i guess, that was when i kind of hope i'm still a kid, mindless of all that bothersome routines to put on bras whenever i change and tearing away gruesome pads(girls, you know what i mean).
nevertheless, i got adjusted to those changes and then came my crushes. and those different influences that surrounded me. that was when i wished o to grow up again, so that i can have more freedom and everything. anyone who knows me and how my parents are, will know what i mean.
now, getting older to me has its good and bad side, the good side namely stuff that i'll look forward to. ok, let's start with the goodstuff. growing up means more freedom from my parents, more say, having the ability to move out, better job, more nights out, finally able to club till i drop, marrying he-whom-i-love-alot, having his child, our own home.... okok, that's getting too far, but well, i have to admit i do dream bout those stuff.. ok, now the bad side, i hate looking old, i hate having a 2-figure age with not enough space on the birthday cake to put up all the candles, i hate having to start stocking up on anti-aging creams, i hate it when my skin starts to sag and my breasts stop defying gravity, i hate the responsibilities that also come with age.
why cant i do what i want at whatever age i'm?! why must my stupid parents be a barrel to my happiniess? darn, where am i getting to? another blog about them and their endless irritating behaviour? nah, i've enough of that. i just cant wait to move away from them, cant wait to have my own child and giving her what i've missed myself.

oh, where did all the talk about aging and stuff started from?!! haha.. k, back to sentosa.. mmm.. actually nothing much, i just had fun and i love that tan i've just gotten. but i was kind of disappointed with him not turning up in the end, i mean he promised man! oh, then i ate lots yesterday also!! glutton! and only managed to take one picture cos su's camera low batt.

hmm.. i really must go on a diet!! i'm eating way too much these days! is it pms?? i mean, i just had crab dinner with wm n him on thurs night. (oOh.. the butter crab was delicious man!!!!) then the next day i "gluttoned" away again and today too-cos i rotted at home. was damned bored, so got food to entertain me. hehs!

Saturday, May 29, 2004 at 11:06 PM

Y Y Y