Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

had been a long long time since i last blogged, and even my last entry is crap. yep, so i do want the phone, but i have to admit, there's still a whole long list of other "oOh, i must have that!!" blast it, i'm broke. fucking tuition agency owing me money, stupid loreal paying ny on the 23rd and i'm on a debt of almost 200bucks for my hp bills, my mom's visa(of which, i swear she initially promised to pay for me-damn)and a coouple of peeps a close 70bucks. fuck, talk about being financially responsible. and i still want that 700bucks hp. argh, must it be that expensive?! i mean, it's supposed to be a mass production product and.... ok, forget, it's not gonna change anything.

oh anyway, as i was saying, it has been a long time since i last blogged. reason being is that i was really busy working. yeah right. loreal roadshow ended on the 2nd of may, and since i've been bumming around.. ok, was feeling... not much point to blog anymore? i mean, baring almost everything about myself to everyone? didnt really brood about that before, probably cos i've kind of treated this blog thing as.. like something to communicate with this someone. ok, let's stop there, dont wana go into that anymore.

so why blogging now? i found my own need to blog, for myself.

ok, about my job-the previous one, loreal. terribly tiring job, had to stand all day(8hrs) to 24 consecutive days, with only 1 day off. fuck that loreal manager who hired us(right, liyin?). so anyway, i've decided to stop working for them even if they're paying us $6/hr(which is peanuts compared to my Cult promoting and Sandisk job). gonna start working for Stila this coming thursday-woohoo!! simply love their fabulous makeup stuff and i just wana work for them even if they're paying only $5/hr cos it's suppose to be quite a cool job. i get to learn makeup skills and on top of that, i can get a 30% discount on their stuff!! shit. oh, then on saturdays and sundays, i'll be promoting for gatsby product-lu'cido at heeren's basic beauty. then there's my tuitions for my cousin and this pri5 girl. haha, i'm really working hard for the stuff i want.

oh, my brother, he's selling boxers and undies at the citylink!! the thought of it always makes me want to laugh. there was one day, he came home and tell us that citylink organised a lucky draw thingy or something like that. and he sat there worrying all day that the host might say something like, "the winner is, oh that guy selling undies!!" hehs!

oh, there are alot of good shows coming on now! must watch troy and van helsing and the day after tomorrow and SHREK2! watched dawn of the dead twice, quite good show if you, really grasp your attention and make you all tensed up but it lacks of a better storyline-didnt really tell us what exactly is that 'thing' spreading around. then there's faye's concert, i really really wana catcg that. i have to admit, i have never been to a concert before, which makes me moe excited bout going to faye's, plus she's totally great. problem, gotta find someone interested to go with me cos i know tk wont ever want to spend that money there.

next, i need to change my attitude towards people. did something rude to my aunt and shocked myself. regrets. anyway, she was kind of in the wrong too. ya but, she's my aunt-i know. ok anyway, it's over, i apologised and she's fine.

tk's existence in my house(he's tuitioning my sis) is sort of making me conscious of my actions-at home. dont know if i should walk around with my crappy-i'm-at-home hair and stupid clothes, in the end i did. haha. and the fact that my mom knows him now, is kind of pressuring cos she has been telling stuff he's not supposed to. like the fact that i used to strip to my undies and lie on the cold floor to cool myself when i got back from school-my kindergarten days. lolx. and ya, also stuff like, when i was rude to her once, and she sms him and he talked to me about it. oh my, it makes me feel like tk's my dad. sheesh..

oh yeah, and guess what, i've got a new laptop. it's benQ joybook and i get to have a BenQ mp3 player for free. well, not something to be that proud bout but i really love it all and the fact that dad bought this $2500 thingy for me, without much hesitation, even when we've both upsetted each other so much. thanks dad.

hmm.. and i've set my mind in moving on and totally forget about this person. i really do have to let go, plus my pride and ego is weighing on me. ok, i'd better stop cos all my droning on about this person kind of makes me seem like i'm talking about my ex-lover or something. completely idiotic.

ok, i'll see this blog again pretty soon.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004 at 12:51 PM

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