Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

she waltz confidently around the ballroom. confident, she felt like she's shining with hope of winning that night's championship. she felt she was the only one exuding the elegance and confidence no one else had. her dance ended with a round of applause and cheers. she returned to her seat, to comments from her love ones. words of encouragement, some of honest critism. with chin held high, she said, "i'm confident of winning." and brushed off any other advices for her second act. and then everything came to an end, the results are coming out. the champion is annouced-it's not her. still, she received a last consolation, which she wouldn't even give it a second glance. she suddenly felt the world closing in, her only hope for a great achievement as her only consolation in life. she didn't win, but never really lost either.

B3s-a passing grade which means you're neither stupid nor smart. ordinary perhaps, or average. a couple of it may come as a consolation. what makes 6 of it then? 18points. getting you no where, meaning you're absolutely average, or perhaps, pure dumbness-cos you dont even have any single thing you can excel in. and freak, of all things to get a b3, is the one subject you're terribly lousy in. a good improvement, it may be-one may say. but what the heck, wont you rather excel in what you usually do and sucks in that particular one? oh wait, so everyone around you shrugs and say, your results aren't bad. but hey, arent bad means it isn't good either, is it not? oh fuck, and it perhaps has got something to do with your pride. all that confidence of getting As sums to nothing. the slight mention of results, of the future, of where to step into next, brings you humbly into a shell. your confidance crumbles, and you start wondering, what if you remain that average the rest of your life? 5 years adds up to average. wont the next 2 years means you're shit? 3 years in design? oh, you dont even have the shit of a foundation. keen ineterst? yes, perhaps. but competitions no longer depends on interest. and you start wondering, do you really have the calibre? will you emerge no where, average, ordinary, again?

tears you felt like shedding wont come, cos the one who loves you alot filled your day with laughs and hope. and it's only now that you realised, he really does love you alot, despite all that insecurities you felt before. and so you vowed never to hold him in doubts again. and you better remember that.

Sunday, February 29, 2004 at 3:45 PM

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