i'm just too bored. doing all these lame quizzes. stupid.
yeah, it's chinese new year's eve. seems like every year, there will definitely be changes.. i mean, darn, what am i saying? as in, yep, every year SHOULD have changes but.. it's like, this is is really different.
hmm.. like, everyone-yeah, and i mean everyone.. my aunts, uncles, their familes-all of them, always come over on new year's eve for steamboat dinner. this year is damn pathetic. only grandma came and this uncle is still on his way-hopefully. and.. ok, this year other than steamboat, there's bbq stuff too-like those we have in seoul graden? yep. then again, that's totally irrelevant. sigh. this year is really quiet, boring and.. not like it used to be. yeah, seems like i agree with su, it has become.. blander?? i mean, not that i dont look forward anymore.. oh well, who doesnt look forward to the red packets??! not that i look forward too, i'm not that totally 'cheena'-though i have a china bf. ha! just that, perhaps it's the homey part of me. i kinda miss the crazy laughing kids-my cousins.. the loud chattings between my relatives and my parents.. to be asked(at least 4 times) by different relatives to join them to eat.. to be asked bout how i'm right now, what i'm doing..
i really dont like changes.. especailly when it's something i'm so used to already.. like.. since i'm young, it happens every year.. and then suddenly, it's all different.
this is definitely one time, i dont feel like growing up-old. what if i do grow up one day and realise we all grow apart from each other too? but does it really matter so much?? i dont know.
oh, but i know.. one day, i'm definitely going over china to have a taste of how chinese new year is like there. he said they have hols the whole month just to celebrate cny. isn't that quite cool? well, i dont know, that's why i really wana see it for myself!! lol..