not a single word for me.
have been telling myself i dont need it,
deep down is a different story.
thought i've been trying hard,
as hard as the others.
or havent i?
so i've hurt her,
but didnt i feel the hurt as much?
or perhaps she'll never know i did.
or for that matter, care.
so many times i've told myself,
i'll tolerate her no more.
but fond memories do stay,
and frankly, i do miss her.
2years, we've known each other.
yet, another christmas spent without her.
saw her blog,
her many thanks.
how i wish i could scream at her,
i've tried just as much.
the silent tears,
she'll never know.
or for that matter, care...