Purely Your Imagination

vera in context.

vera's johari

(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!) ARIES WOMAN >> >>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal >>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things >>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even >>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. >>She >>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for >>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. >> >>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This >>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face >>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, >>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing >>or mixture of character. >> >>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She >>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize >>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will >>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other >>people >>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in >>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, >>nothing will stop her. >> >>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another >>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty >>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. >>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold >>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she >>choose you, she will need to be proud of you. >> >>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is >>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She >>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also >>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance >>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do >>not >>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. >> >>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come >>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth >>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even >>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" >>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you >>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. >> >>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent >>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a >>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most >>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and >>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her >>beautiful >>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. >> >>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high >>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will >>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself >>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. >> >>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is >>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, >>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing >>it.

i want/i need.

air. love. food. air. air. air.

my horoscope for last friday:
Your Daily Horoscope for December 05, 2003

Dear YWS,
You may feel like a young puppy that has just been let outside for the first time, IMPATIENT. The air is warm and delicious, and you are brimming over with energy. You are ready to take off running through the lawn, out into the fields, and over the hills in the distance. Unfortunately, however, you are tied to a large stake in the ground and your area of movement does not extend beyond a ten-foot radius. Your heart is ready to fly, but something beyond your control is keeping you where you are. Start chewing the rope.

this is abit freaky.
out with shiping, weiming, yeehui, sulyn, kahsiang, etc.. first time since a long long while on thursday night..
went home later then usual. stupid taxi drivers don't take passengers flaging for taxi, on top of that, 2 frigging Lao Aunties tried to cut my queue. had abit of fun playing with them. ha! mom and dad called hp continuously while i was in taxi heading for home. screamed and shouted over the phone. even taxi driver got the gist and suggested different ways to hasten the ride home. sms mom that i'll be home late earlier on actually, and then again to apologise when she hung up on me.

"you answer to dad yourself.." mom replied in her sms.

reached home to a locked gate..
stayed outside for awhile contemplating if i should just leave. finally dad opened the door and asked me in. second round of scoldings. threatened to throw me out.

dad: you'd better cooperate with us! if you want to stay in this house, you'd better stay home everyday and listen to us. or else, you leave now. you choose!
me: but i was only out for work..! *(ok, i lied abit here..)
dad: don't tell me go out for work, you worked for 2 weeks and you're already suggesting to go pubs and disco!

looked at mom and she looked away. stupid hypocritical bitch! so she was the one who had stirred things up by telling my dad i must be at pub or disco, yet still play "hao ren".
felt so much like telling dad not to believe her, that she had secretly helped me dye the back of my hair and told me to lie to my dad that my friend did it for me. so she doesn't like to get into trouble, but that, in the expense of her own daughter.

chose to stay home and went up to pack stuff. 2 big bags. told grandpa about it, he wanted me to stay at his place but i thought it's abit more fun to stay at friend's first, plus other reasons of course. so he drove me to viv's house on friday afternoon.

5th dec, friday, i left home. (see? the horoscope is so accurate!!)-first time clubbing..
viv and i went to dbl O pub at mohamed sultan for job audition-promote energy drink at 7-11 only la.. we got selected and went to meet shiping, kahsiang and weiming at 11pm. walked around abit, rot and tried to get into the chocolate bar and the hendrix. too bad most of us were not of age. headed down to madmonks instead, they were having aces day(not sure if i got it right), but generally it meant lesbians night, no guys allowed. but somehow, kahsiang and weiming still got in. we bought embarrassing peach teas(10 fucking bucks) cos we were told that there would be operation that night. didn't want to take any chance, first day left home and land myself in trouble. danced crazily and did dirty dance with shiping and viv. haha. stupid but fun.
wanted to skip midnight taxi charge so decided to stay out til 6am. went to maxwell for food and drinks and to rot. unfortunately, viv told her parents she was working midnight shift and her dad did not believe. stuff happened and in the end i got scolded by her dad for asking her daughter to stay out so late. told me to get out of his house.
alright, so the staying with a friend plan did not work. sigh..
went to weming's to sleep in awhile at bout 6am.. but felt really lousy, so didn't sleep much. around 11, shifted stuff from viv's to grandpa. reached grandpa's and kinda felt like going home. no bed, spare room kinda messy, have to sleep on weird mattress. actually, throughout the night outside, i did not for once stop feeling guilty or upset about levaing home. but my parents did not even bother to call, so, oh wells..

6th dec, saturday, start if new job ($7/hr!!)
took a long bath to wash away the stinky smoke smell on me. yucks. met viv to head for work. promoted Cult energy drink at 7-11, first at Plaza Sing, then outside Ngee Ann. earned $42 in 6 hours.went to meet weiming. yeehui.. ok, the gang.. at far east at 9pm. nothing do actually, really tired too. so everyone headed for home at 10.30pm.. reached grandpa's place at 11.30 and took a bath. finally thought of a new problem. my filthy clothes!

i miss my maid already!!

nvm, like kahsiang said: she's not a girl, she's an independent woman. ok, i'll think of ways.

*****

he messaged earlier in last night:
"my love,how are you?are you ok already?i worried for you the whole day..really.are you feeling lonely right now?or nth else to do?pls bear with it ok?i really miss you alot..but i don't know how to comfort you now.maye you're really sad now bcos of all the things happened this few days.i hope knowing that i miss you alot would ease your pain at this moment...don't think abt it..actually i really wanna move out to stay wit you after i come back to s'pore.although i know it's qute impossible,i really want to take care of you...btw,i bought you a few things..and i found the sunglasses you wanted..not exactly the same but it's very cute,very big,like my head..i bought one also..so that i can wear together..i wana change my shoe to the one similar to your choice..but if you don't like that we have similiar shoes,tell me...today,my mom told me thats he bought a new overseas telephone card..consider buying it(talked abt d uses of d card).u can use it to save money.if u've too much,save em to spend with me when i return.take care of yourself.i wanna see you in1piece when i return here..i really love you..-XX"

i felt so, so much better.. but somehow it renews the longing for him to return asap. *sob*

Sunday, December 07, 2003 at 12:31 PM

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