when things seemed to be within my grasp.
walked past her today. felt this crazy urge to go over and say hi. restrained myself though.
what would i be doing to my pride if i'd done just that.
throughout the bus ride home, my mind kept drifting to memories we once shared.
those early mornings-squashed in a packed bus. her quips. sharing food. studying. talks. shopping.
and of cos, those other things she had mentioned in my bdae present.
tears of sorrow slid down, unnoticed.
just when i thought everything was gona be fine. the very day on the floors at compass.
my chance, our "reunion".
and then "poof" it's gone. and i still don't understand what exactly she meant about what i did.
yeah, i was angry. angry with her constant accusations without even trying to get things straight.
then why all these feelings i'm having now?
and i really hate those friends of hers who seemed to have tried to befriend me, or so she had claimed.
i didn't ask for it. i didn't even need it.
i just wanted her friendship-no package.
the whole deal is too fake. i lose one, i lose all. so what's the point.
but i guess it doesn't really matter now. she's gone, so is her blog.
i can't even see what she's thinking now.
and i just know she won't care to see mine either.
maybe it's really time to put away all traces of adolescence with the lovely, impossible dreams.