was studying at nessa's house today. was gona write something on this piece of rough paper when i suddenly saw these words : 'you sux'
for a moment my blood froze. maybe cos i was working too hard on my maths that i was kinda "off my mind" for awhile. i actually thought thoes words were screaming out at me, thought someone had wrote those--meant those for me.
for awhile my world seemed to reel around.
and i was again the sec2, sec3(1st yr) ger. with this group(a big group) of people outcasting me, hating me, mocking and teasing me.. almost anywhere, i can see these words: you sux, yiwen sucks, etc, etc.. they were everywhere-the black benches outside the classes of the old school, buses.. vandalisms- words shooting at me.. nightmares? no, these are real, my past.. have not thought bout these stuff since like, a long long time..
then i was the present me again. n i saw the great friends i'm having now. all the wonderful things in my life.. yea, things weren't going ok these few days.. but for awhile i was grateful, grateful for the things that i'm basking in now. how i appreciate the friends who are here, now.
how i suddenly looked forward to saturday's outing. the stuff i wana buy too.
but something happened, seems like there won't be any outing le.. don't feel like it now anyway..
the emptiness sets a mark...