saturday:
finally finished my chinese prelims (whew~)
ok, pant three times n a good movie.
then it's emaths mock exams next sat!
and then pant three times..
then it's amaths mock exams..! duh~!
thought i'm gona dropdead, with all these preparations and stuff. "so interesting being a student huh?"
but i guess this is just parts and parcels of life. each and every stage in our life, we are bound to be tied down with commitments, assignments to be rushed, datelines to be met, responsibilities to handle... i wana be a free soul!! someday, if i can't take these stuff anymore, i'm gona be a carefree wanderer-is that what you call it? haha. wana travel to different parts of the world, live a simple and stress-free life(work only when i need the $ and stuff), just being happy with whatever i'm doing. (but of cos if i marry a rich guy, that'd be a totally different stort altogether! hee!)
sunday(mother's day):
went present hunting with nessa in the morning. had fun.
bought different sorts of small stuff, placed them all in this beautiful heart-shaped box, with an array of scent stuff from The Scent Shop. added different kinds of messages.
think she loves it. you think?
aunty joyce called from canada. had this feeling like i'd alot to tell her. hovered around the phone while my mom was talking with her. then when it was finally handed to me, i can't think of what to say or what i wana say anymore. just wished her happy mother's day. distance really pull everyone away from one another, even her name sound so remote, so meaningless. i missed her terribly.
Today..
individual meeting with Mrs Chow. "great." the last thing i need is all that glances and stares i get.
yeah, so i was singled out, branded student with attitude problem. just cos i prioritise my studies.
hate sciences, won't ever be able to cope with it, so thought i'm gona let them go, altogether. not gona take any sciences in JC anyway. yea, this is how i see things. wana excel 'excellently?' in other areas.
talked with mrs chow in her office. totally unnerving, don't know why, just thought i was gona puke. too nervous and my hands were shaking.
but it turn out not that bad. was able to not show my fears and nervousness to her. projected myself with confidence and told her about how i feel towards stuff.
she seemed impressed! haha. said i'm a "bright and practical girl" and "very down-to-earth and have a very independent thinking" gee, really?
ok, these are the good stuff of cos, then she went to drone on the importance to be focus now and stuff and got me to start writing a study plan. hee, and i just took out the one i already had. ok, scored another point, she was impressed again!
ok, enough. really tired, drained, BTH! haha. hafta sleep. the bed look so inviting.. haha.
oh yeah, last thing, rina, did u sms into Perfect10? the quote i told you about?-"as long as one stands up straight, it doesn't matter if his or her shadow is crooked" =P
"What you're supposed to do when you don't like a thing is change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it. Don't complain."
~ Maya Angelou