nothing seems to go right these days. realised that my blog is so full of the bad stuff happening in my life. makes it seem as though i'm wallowing in self-pity. totally pathetic. this week really sucks, everything went wrong, far from wrong, totally down the drains. i don't know what to do. if this is what they call the growing up phrase, i don't wana grow!
this is a summarised list of things that went wrong:
-school>teacher called parents with some made-up story
-friends>nothing is ever right here anyway, so i guess it's better left unsaid
-family>wanted a nice dinner with family, ordered pizzas(offer:2 for $20), accused by mom that i spent that money like no one's business-made a big hell outa it.
-movie>cancelled, ended up alone at orchard. roamed around awhile then hid myself in a corner at borders, read alot of great stuff tho.
nevermind, gona sleep. maybe tomorrow will be better. or maybe not?
then again, i'd probably end up waking in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep, again. what's wrong with me man! sleep also a problem!
can't make myself enjoy anything anymore, laughter don't come as easy as it used to be.
constrictions in my chest, sometimes i thought i was gona die from it.
if u really don't like me,
why did you even thought of giving birth to me?!
why always push me to the edge,
make my life a hell?
why don't you just abort me,
solve everything, doesn't it?
what do you want me to do to show you how i love this home, how i hope everything will just be great at home?
maybe you want me to die?
to prove everything to you?
to prove i can't take it anymore..
...to prove i'd do anything, just to achieve your acceptance.