frankly speaking, i was in some kind of dilemma when i put the sticker pic and make that comment. after all both sides are my friends. yeah, sort of larx... dowana say i'm caught in the middle or what, coz i'm not. i mean face reality, i know deep down myself which side can really be my real, true friends. but that's not the point i guess...
i still remember there was this period of time when this group of people(guess, dey juz noe hu dey'r!) whom i called(or tot) good friends, outcasted me and did some stuff behind my back. maybe it was something about me, maybe it's something about them, or maybe it's just how life's like(sux?).. dunno.. but it's something i won't ever forget.
-wrote ulgy messages to one another about me, while managing to write me some "sweet" ones
-tricked me into some kinda confession stuff and spreading around
-stuff, just stuff... (n even later, dey juz did tingx outright 2 leme noe...)
i mean, how can people be so mean? look at ourselves, and at others, what difference do you really see? yes, i know, like some are pretty, some are not and that kinda stuff.. but whoever made us, made us the way we're, out of the facade that many of us put upon ourselves, we're nothing but humans-we're one.
well, newayz who am i to say these things ritez? i mean, i do admit that there are some times when i was quite mean too, like when i made mean comments and stuff about people.. i guess that's just human ba.. but just that one should not go all out, you know, to the extreme to hurt others so much... sometimes, it just makes me wonder, is there nothing better to do then to device such plans just to make one's day lousy.
but anyway, i'm telling things that not many people know, especially people whom i've made friends with since last year. when i got retained and my other friends got promoted, i just sort of let these bad memories go with them ba... i don't how people may feel towards all these that i've said, towards all these that they've learnt bout me, but i guess i couldn't care less? newayz, it's when i got to know these new friends laz year, that i got to realise how shallow i've, and they've been...erMx like, people like matthew, he was once an outcast among alot of people, people just made mean jokes about him(ya, me too..), teased him and stuff... but now, in 4e5, it seems like practically everyone loves him. and i also found out that, he's very nice also... and i felt like, shitx...
anyway, to the person(let's juz call him/her A) i'm trying to bring this message across to(and perhaps the many others who also have their silent lousy times), life's not about what others think of you or what they do to you. if people let you down, just tell yourself: nvm, i cn get tru tis.. and just move on! i learnt my lesson not to judge people by it's cover and stuff, and also this thing i came across in comic: when there's nothing good about someone, don't say anything. yea, sometimes it's easier said then done, but im trying... but anyway, i've something nice to say about A, he/she has got really realy nice eyes! wish i've them coz mine are like.. ya, shitx! perhaps those people'll also learn theirs sooner or later... but, it doesn't benefit anyone else, but themselves...
lastly, something i really like:
"Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we
are different that each of us is special. Do not set your goals by what other
people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Do not take for
granted the things closest to your heart - cling to them as you would your life,
for without them, life is meaningless."
from "A Creed to Live By" by Nancye Sims