vera in context.
vera's johari
(ripped this somewhere which i think is really true!)
ARIES WOMAN
>>
>>She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal
>>frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things
>>and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even
>>real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one.
>>She
>>think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for
>>herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.
>>
>>If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This
>>seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face
>>mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up,
>>slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing
>>or mixture of character.
>>
>>Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She
>>thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize
>>everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will
>>handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other
>>people
>>that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in
>>crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing,
>>nothing will stop her.
>>
>>Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another
>>woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty
>>dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.
>>She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold
>>and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she
>>choose you, she will need to be proud of you.
>>
>>"Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is
>>"Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She
>>plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also
>>very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance
>>because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do
>>not
>>want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.
>>
>>She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come
>>from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth
>>anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even
>>when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident"
>>even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you
>>can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time.
>>
>>You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent
>>some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a
>>"Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most
>>likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and
>>artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her
>>beautiful
>>imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan.
>>
>>A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high
>>point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will
>>not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself
>>now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure.
>>
>>If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is
>>stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,
>>but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing
>>it.
i want/i need.
air. love. food. air. air. air.
all's been better!i'm so excited about the trip i just booked.
firsly, finally i'm travelling on a plane on my OWN holiday trip to somewhere!
secondly, it's our first real holiday together(genting doesnt count cos it doesnt involve a plane ride."
thirdly, it's the first holiday i diy planned, so i'm looking very much forward to it.
so on the 19th, i'll return to singapore from my icn-sfo flight at 1.20am.
then i'll take my free company transport home, since the arrival time is after midnight. probably take a quick short nap cos coming home from flight always means -super shagged-.
wake up about 5.30am to get packed and prepared for the trip... and leave for the airport at 7.30am.
then shop in the airport for about an hour, as i've always wanted to do, even though i go in and out of the airport so so often... -_-
AND, at 9am we'll hafta check in for our flight to BALI by AIRASIA! =)
we've picked Harris Tuban Hotel after browsing through so many hotels reviews for 3nights! but finally decided on Harris cos of the special package they can offer to cabincrew. only $309 for 5D4N and inclusive of our daily breakfast! it's not the cheapest we can find, but Harris is relatively new compared to the other hotels photos and reviews we've read... and on top of that, Harris is only 5mins away from the airport, which means we dont hafta wake up in the wee hours on the last day to travel back home.
1 review said, " harris is so near the airport that we arrived the hotel, before we could say 'terima kasih' "
anyway, on the 19th we'll reach Bali by noon, and the hotel offered to pick us up for free. most hotels i checked only offered transfer back to airport.
and i've planned 5days consecutive massage/spa treatment for the both of us! i'm so looking forward to feeling oh-so-shiok and rejuvenated after the entire trip! maha.
right now i cant stop thinking about the massage i had, the last time i had a nightstop there. my crew brought us to the spa that's frequented by crew and the service was excellent.
i had 2 masseuse at the same time for 2 hours. 1 massaged my back while the other concentrated on my legs, i felt like a king! and all that for only 35bucks.
where to find sial......i'll be back in singapore on the 23rd afternoon, just about enough rest for my auckland flight the next day at 6am. but i'll bet i'm gonna be so re-energised after the whole trip! =D
that aside, i just bought a new fridge and i'm loving it! the old one that we had was frigging old and spoilt and...disgusting. can you imagine finding ants in your fridge??? and
its owners did nothing to take care of it, the insides had blotches of yellow stains and even glooey stuff left probably from over-kept rotten stuff.
our new samsung fridge costs us 650bucks but i'd say it's money well-spent! now i can start saving money by stocking up my fridge with food so that i can eat out less and have healthier meals at home. =)
that day when the fridge arrived, we had to clear out the old fridge, and we found rotten green apples at the bottom of everything! i jokingly asked fi if the apples were red ones initially. the smell was frigging bad and i had to throw away a lot of other stuff that came into contact with it. i bet if i werent the one doing it, fi and his brother would probably have continue keeping those stuff till they in turn rot as well.
other than that, i'm enjoying my job a little more now... just the last trip to christchurch, i had an adventurous self-planned trip, drive-out 5hours out of town to mount cook to see the mountains. and my batchboy was on the flight. =)
it's trips like that that makes flying more enjoyable. (other than, obviously, the money lah.)
and i'm so loving the whole of today, we cooked my special tomato-based celery/carrots/chilli soup and had corned beef with onions on bread. stayed home and do nothing the whole day. it's days like that in singapore that i awfully missed. and it costs next to nothing!
gonna upload my christchurch photos on facebook soon. go see! =D
Sunday, June 07, 2009 at 6:42 PM
Y Y Y
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 at 1:29 AM
Y Y Y
a lover's touch.today i woke up cold and empty. it's winter out there, as it is in zurich for 6months already. but the morning sun is shining so strong, it made me perspire in my thick layers of duvet. it felt like i have fallen asleep tanning at the beach. but inside i felt cold, and so in need of the familiar warmth and that loving hug.
it feels terrible. you know? waking up with no sense purpose for the day, except to look forward, longing for time to pass a little faster, so that i'll quickly be on my way home to cookie jar.
---
it's sickening, to think about it, that every single phrase in my life i've always been looking forward for the next. like when i was little i wish i can grow up faster; to be independent, and when i was in my teenage years i couldnt wait to start work real soon so that i can have the freedom that i didnt have. unless you grew up in my parents' discipline, you will never truly understand the kind of yearning like a fish wishing it could fly. and now that i'm in my adulthood, earning a handsome monthly salary and living with the perfect man in
themy world, each day at work i long for it to end so i can be back in the care of someone i've grown overly-dependent on. and for many obvious reasons, on the whole, we're both looking forward to the day when he starts work; and then i can take a big break from all that weight on my shoulders.
thank god for him, for when my optimism wears thin, he'll surely be there to hold me. and to touch me, physically with his caring caress and mentally with his reassuring words, and just even his slightest butterfly touches to make known of his presence... makes me feel like i'm in safe hands.
---
and this morning i woke up needing so much to hear his voice again... and as much as i feel a tad bit disappointed that he's out for the day and i wont know when exactly he'll be back to call me; i cant allow myself to feel that wee bit upset. cos afterall, i was the one who wanted it that way. so that he doesnt have to stay home all day waiting for me to wake up in my morning hours; at his ungodly hours, just for me to call him.
just like i dont wish for myself to go through the same.
reading his entry just now, makes me wish i can fly home right this very moment, to hug and hold him and give him that kind of loving he's been giving me.
Sunday, March 22, 2009 at 5:20 PM
Y Y Y
depression, comes slowly... then, suddenly.how long does it take, for -something- to heal, or what? i remember when i was small, i always slip and fall on the back of my head in my slippery kitchen. i'd bawl like a baby, cos i was that young. and grandma would come hurrying over and sayang my head, offering me that kind of empathy no one in the adulthood has been able to provide. and i got over it, enveloping myself in the nest of concern of a loving grandma.
the past year had been really hard for me. the rollercoaster of events took place in such a quick pace, i dont know if i have truly gotten over one and the next one came along. i often lie alone in my hotel rooms and stare into space, and think of all the things i went through, and how much it still hurts somewhere inside. and just as the tears start to well up in my eyes, i stop.
cos the one time i allowed myself to cry, i ended up feeling stupid, useless and tiny - after a few sobs. no one could be there to hold me, to tell me it will be alright, and to offer any form of empathy.
and then i thought about how i relate my eventful year to friends, i hadnt let on any hurt that is still in me, and sometimes, i laugh about them. and it reminds me of how i adapted to my 'art of falling down'. that instead of allowing myself to feel sorry that people are laughing at the way i fell or how clumsy i was or even to awkwardly shun away from the sympathy people try to offer; i laugh at it first, so that everyone will(might) be laughing with me, not at me.
and so i used the same method for getting by the hard times that i had. even to fi, sometimes i make humor of my hardships and make it seem nothing of them.
but as much as it really still hurts, i dont see any point in wallowing myself in self-pity and so i dont know how to talk about my pain, to anyone. and so i laugh and i smile and i joke and i......
really
feel
that
i
have
over-used
my
optimism
and
it
is
really
wearing
thin.
Y Y Y
Friday, January 02, 2009 at 11:07 PM
Y Y Y
